. ' 10:10 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
OH MY GOSH I AM SHOCKED BY THE MANY HORRIBLE PICTURES OF ME THAT ARE POSTED ON THE WEB, OTHER'S BLOGS AND CLASS VIDEO.
i better start being careful with my photos.
on a random note, i feel like changing to wordpress.
am considering... seems more suitable for a severely wordy person like me :D
but sadly, the html cannot be changed after setting e 1st time. i'm just too fickle minded :(
and i seriously need to update my links
. ' 5:20 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
i think that this year, instead of enhancing my knowledge and improving me, has did more harm than good.
i feel my communicating skills break down, i've lost all forms of writing senses, the passion to read is gone.
i've lost the yearn for knowledge, the inquisitive, curiosity. the sense of righteousness and standing up for what i think is right. the argumentative side of myself.
my memory is steadily deteriorating. i've lost my thinking and inference skills. i'm much less observant than i used to be.
i haven't learn't anything this year. to add on to the misery, nt only did i not gain anything, i lost those that i already had before.
i've been too holed up in my own stupid life which revolves around studies studies and more studies and making use of all free time to sleep that i haven't noticed until now how much i've lost just by coming to sngs.
my life is just a pile of dung.
i can't even be bothered to post on cos i can't find the words to express myself.
. ' 12:10 AM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
i have gotten so bored to the stage that i am hooked onto this game on miniclip called 'off the rails', cos its prob e most interesting thing i find doing now. it involves 2 jellybean men peddling this seesaw like handcart on rails, jumping over bouncing pufferfishes and blue porpucines. i am bent on passing lvl 12, which sadly, i still fail too. either i end up flying off the broken rails, losing my balance when i jump and explode, or rush on too eagerly that i fly into the unsuspected red eye insects. my state of boredness is so serious that i even ogle at the cuteness of the jellybean men in straw hats with their cute minute hands and legs, marvel at their perfect colour and tone and their absolute adorableness when they cling on to their handcart and 'fly', and pity them with utmost sadness when they explode.
to operate e handcart, you have to press the left and right arrow repeatedly to show the peddling of the cart. thus, we can all safely conclude that my second and forth finger are both exceptionally sore now.
i need some decent sleep to wake up tomorrow for church. but sadly i just can't seem to
talking to kmy makes me feel terribly unaccomplished.
i am getting so lazy that i can never managed the 30 situps i resolved to do every night. sigh
someone, slap me.
.Saturday, November 03, 2007 ' 6:40 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
i must be the laziest shit existing in the world right now
still slacking. slacking...
to make myself feel better, i try convincing myself that the term 'slack' should nt appear in my brain since its the holidays, and holidays are meant for
slacking rest, relaxation and enjoyment. but knowing freakingly well that right now many of the 1justicians, whether it be chionging or taking their own sweet time, doing some homework. i, on the other hand, haven't even started downloading any work, started studying some shit or even start packing my junkyard.
ps: i am so lazy to the extend that right now i can't even be bothered to unglue my eyes frm e laptop, leave the bed and walk 5metres to the living rm to talk to my sister. i can't even be bothered to shout, which is easy-peasy considering my huge vocals. instead, i use the msn to convey a few simple msgs. how pathetic is that?
i can't even be bothered to walk perhaps 3metres to the kitchen to spit out the gum in my mouth that i have been chewing for almost an hour.
don't talk about e hard stuff like homework and studying. i dun even have the motivation to update my friendster, upload my pictures and clear my laptop and hp memory card. or even cook my own decent meals or empty a sachet of coffee powder into a mug, having to resort to cornflakes and milk.
whats becoming of me? oh dear.
i need to find the determination to start working. fast.
.Thursday, November 01, 2007 ' 9:15 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
BEEP.
i have been putting off blogging abt my ppr and sat's teens for so long.
bleughhhhh
why?
both are so horrible that i don't really want to think about it
nt so great but long day today. had lunch with some band ppl. then rushed off for band at 1.30 and blah blah blah. got taken my mr ong at e music rm cos some stupid stole away the dance studio which according to some person that we booked 1st. hurmph. blew a couple of funny things. was pretty squashed up trying to share scores. some things happened then which made me feel confused and pissed. and shiying was looking frigging emo. haha. then we had to scram at 3.30 cos co was coming in... bleughh.
"you all can go home now"
"HOORAY"
happily trots back to the band rm to find that we were having combine with HER and the woodwinds.
"BLEUGH"
was a stupid thing trying to have combined in e band rm. we poor trombones and trumpets were tottering at the back on the steps and trying to find places for our stands and horribly long slide. was better for e trumpets, at least their instrus wern't as huge. the other sects were just squashed along e benches. but i totally sympathize with the percs. they were like along the stairs, facing the danger of falling down. with drums somemore. *clap clap* don't know how they managed it.
played i saw mummy kissing santa claus. hated it. i kinda cheated a little. i was hiding behind this pillar at e back. haha. then i got kinda scared and guilty for cheating my way out and tried to blow a little. but that was worse. i was just like spoiling the whole thing. and i was sandwiched between 1st and 2nd. and i would blow 1st at the parts i could and when they were too high, i wuld switch to 2nd. horrible me. and i'm terrible at feigning blowing. the look on my face just gives me away.
got kinda pissed...
then joannah gave us all a treat at pasta mania. ohmygosh. freaking exp. joannah must be like chao rich. we cabbed there cos there was supposed to be a 30% discount frm 2.30-5.30 and it was already 5 budden i duno why dey didn't give it to us ): and no one seemed to be bothered anyway so haha nevermind. ate my fave baked rice ((: then qixuan left and we sat in macs to be bored... just didn't want to go home. left at arnd 7.15 (:
went home on 156 with joannah.
"i swear i know the right way home this time (:"
i'm really confused and tired of what they call, ______ politics
is the world that complex?
there are just too many fakers and hyprocrites around that i really duno who to trust anymore.
should i go for band camp?
well its a stupid question.
but i'm still hesitating.... i really want my 6A gathering ):
okok... i promised to upload those pics for e sect today
is life always that complicated?
