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thankew once again =]

gee ppl. i'm so sorri for nt posting abt de past wk cos i really culdn't be bothered. i think i shld stop posting every little thing and give yer all de impt points. wakakas. i think i've inherited my naggy genes frm my mum =P
ok, wednesday... can't really rmb what really happened on wed.. sorries.. =[
and on thurs, 1.2 jog. haiiyoh. my leg still jelly jelly larh.
i was running really slowly with grace. cos its like, we did it at 8.15am after pc so our class was de 1st class down so we ran 1st. den horhs i duno wad on earth hope thinking larh. dey wern't jogging. dey were SPRINTING. summore in de opposite direction. haiiyoh.
and i think grace culd had ran faster, just dat she wanted tuu accompany me. hahas thx sooo much grace =]
den dance. ahhhh.... disaster.
lin lao shi kept smiling at at jessica. wakaka. she was de only one dancing properly larh. we all looked horrible lorhhs.
and dere was chinese lit. wakaka. zhang lao shi was talking abt this 易水寒 thingy:
风萧萧兮易水寒
壮士一去不复还
den she was saying her ex students translated it into:
wind blow blow, water cold cold
strong man go go, cum back no no
HAHAHA. LOL. WAKAKA. SO DAMM FUNNY LARH. hahas. we all laughed like xiao.
den after sch we did de storyboard. wakaka. i'm so sorry to all in my english grp. i was pretty snappy.
cos for sum reason i was in a bad mood. den i skipped lunch. and xin hui wasn't suppose to stay back and wanted tuu go hme so i was like, pretty pissed (that's an understatement, its more like extremely) with her larhhs. and kept snapping at everyone. but when we finally completed it me, jane and xinhui had lunch. and den we like, kinda clicked again. euu noe wad i mean?
and jane and i took de same bus together. wakaka.
and today. hahas. morning=chinese test. wakaka. disaster.
i simpily wrote all dat i knew. and the rest i guessed. wakaka.
and then was geog. muahahahas. so funny larh. ms lee was talking abt de earth's crust divided into plates den smth abt de mantle and de magna and wadever crap below de earth's surface den de plates will move den when dey bump den earthquakes will form. den ms lee was like, real dramatic larh when she said de earth plates will move den she was waving her hands in a circular motion dramatically den i tot move alot. den i was asking lydia, what if 20 yrs later horh, singapore end up in where china was and china moved to where america was and so on? and den ms lee continued, de plates moved really slowly, like, 1cm a yr. -.-
diaos. i was so pai sae.
den horhhs we had science, where we were all cooing over burettes and pipettes. hahas.
and band was after sch. hahas. i felt so inferior larh. cos we were practicing in unity's classrm den we sec 1s were playing really badly larh. den cos dere was like, 4 sec 1s and 1 sec 2, 1 sec 3 and 1 sec 4. duno where de rest of de ppl went to larh. den de sec 4 person, andrea was teaching us tuu blow and blah blah. and then de sec 3 and 2 ppl like, want tuu practice cos dey didn't want tuu 'die' de nxt day. i think their having syf prac tmr. den we sec 1s like, dragging dem down cos dey can't practice lidat larh. and i think Diana felt de same way cos she was like, saying we can ownself practice den dey can practice for their syf stuff. haiis.\
den we went home. wakaka. had kfc for dinner. as usual. haii. i dun think i'll ever lose weight at this rate.
my pimples are popping. my dandruff is getting worse. my blackheads are reappearing. my face is damm oily. and i think i'm getting fatter.
i think its due to de lack of slp and stress. and my unhealthy diet. i read smth like this frm reader's digest.
muahahas.
i'll stop bored-ing euu ppl abt my life stories.
wakaka. i know euu all are bored. and yesh, i am very very naggy.
so sorry 4 making euu all listen tuu de my naggy old grandmother life stories again.

sayonara　さよなら

ok, post continued. yahhs i promised to finish my post yesterday but i was pretty tired yesterday...
anyways, on tuesday dere was chem. den we were like, cooing at every apparatus ms yee was showing us, going "sooooo cuteeeee...." hahas. pretty funny larh.
den horhs during science, history repeated. gastric.
dere's smth seriously wrong with me.
den we had pe. i survived it. barely.
we did 3 rounds, and de target was 7.5 mins. 要我的命啊 !!!!
i did it in 8.59. horrible larh.
den horhs we did napha training. and i culdn't do a single inclined as i expected larhs. or rather, i culd do 1 and den no strength to do another one liao lorh. haii.
den after pe we rush rush rush to math. i'm beginning to hate math larhs. de mrs soh horhs, so very idiotic de lorhs. she everytime give grp or project work and give us like, 5 mins to do ?!?! den after lesson we still can't finish she just ask us to prepare tmr. and she already say its grp or pair work summore if sumone do everything she will scold, dun do she will scold, wad de heck does she wants frm us man...


and recess. i was like, so hungry but had no appetite. i left half of my 面线 untouched. haii.

and den there was art. ms gwee horh, came like, approx 30mins late larhhs. den we were making an awful din. and min yu was making min guess her cca. hahas.
and min said that i looked like i was frm choir and sang soprano super high pitched. oh min. i can't sing to save my life.
and then english. hahas. i was pratically falling asleap during storytelling. sorry ppl. it wasn't cos eur stories were boring but i was really tired. and i think mrs kwan knew that i was slping cos she asked us to get up and stretch cos we were getting restless den i was looking sleepily at her den she was like, "get up and stretch, especially joan uh ..." -diao- -.-
and then, band band band. haiiyoh, horrible larh. we gt chased out of de music rm by ms sia cos she wanted to prac wif de main band, meaning de syf ppl. and she seemed veri bad mood lorhs. and according to sum sec 1 band ppl, its cos de main band played badly in de syf rehersals de night before.
den diana, olivia, shiyin and me were practicing de very few notes we learnt. den we started playing de mary had a little lamb. wakakaka. we played a duet tuu but i think it sounded horrible.
den 1 hr later we were like, damm bored and damm sian and what did we do? we slept.
muahahahahas. i'm serious.
and den we went homeeeeee ............ and whatever i did at home was nt eur business. wakaka. jkjk.

ok, wednesday... haiiyoh ... i realli wanna slp liaos larhs. will post abt wed, thurs and friday tmr.
sorri abt that.
i think i'm blogging too much.
everyday i see or hear or experience smth interesting i wanna blog blog blog.
but when i open my laptop i forgot wad i wanna blog blog blog.
i shall do that tmr.
so sorri abt this again. i'm going tuu slp =]

oyasumimasai おやすみまさい　

hello ppl. here to give yer all an update on sat, sun, mon and today.
i had a miserable 4 days.
on sat, i had teen's fellowship (foc). yay =]
we played uno stacko =D


and cos many new ppl came, it was more fun than usual =]
then we had a sharing thingy. and i shared that i had a miserable wk wif like, so darn many tests and i got back so many test papers that i failed and is going into my ppr. saddened.
than after teens i went home and i was like, feeling pretty tired for some reason and went to slp. and when i woke up it was like, 10pm and my mum left some duck and rice for me and my sis fried an egg. and i had dinner. and i wanted to vomit lorhhs. but haven't eat anything so nth tuu vomit.
and after dinner i was studying my jap. den i wanted to vomit again. and i had a terrible headache. and i culdn't concentrate so i just went tuu slp although i wasn't even slpy but my head hurt terribly so i culdn't do anything else. and when i lay down i suddenly felt all the duck and rice and egg and whateva i ate cuming up my gullet. and i vomited.
hahas. but luckily i was smart enuf tuu stuff a plastic bag under my pillow. so i just whipped out my plastic bad and vomited into it. hahas. oh and i had diarrohea to.
and de nxt day i like, 勉强 go tuu church although i was feeling veri sick. and cos de night before i had vomited out all my dinner and i didn't eat breakfast i was like, so very hungry. so i ate a couple of tuna sandwiches.




and i culdn't resist those nice strawberry creme with chocolate icing tarts aunty carol made. so i ate 1. and when i reached home i felt like vomiting, had diarrohea and headache so i went tuu slp. and when i woke up it was 7pm.
so i chionged hw, and didn't really studied for jap cos i didn't really haf de time.
and on monday i went to sch. and during english i had gastric. but i swear i didn't drink i single drop of coffee within de past 48hrs. honestly. i didn't know what happened.
and then i had english storytelling. it went terribly cos i didn't memorize, was expressionless and was like, reading straight frm my cue cards.
and my gastric pains went on frm english till math until recess. than after recess i was fine. even went to macs wif may shuen and min yu for lunch. but jap was a disaster.
it was like, my stomach started hurting like xiao larh. nt de kind where euu haf tuu go tuu de toliet larhhs... but it hurt really really alot and thru de ca2 exam i was like, groaning silently and i pratically wrote crap on my paper and left alot blank. and then during break i rest and groaned at my desk, and called kai xin to hlp me buy a bottle of water frm de canteen. hahas thx kai xin =]
then after break my stomach hurt even worse and i was like, prepared tuu scream out loud except dat poon wuldn't be tuu pleased. so i asked tuu go tuu de toliet and thankfully, it was empty and i was groaning like a maniac in there. and i had a very very very very bad case of diarrohea. and i finally knew what ppl meant by, 拉肚子拉到脚软. serious. and the nxt day i was like, gonna run 3 rounds. haiyoh....
and then after jap i met rebecca and we went hme together. and on de bus it was like, super crowded and rebecca got herself a seat and i my stomach was still hurting quite badly so i crammed myself above de, euu noe, 1st aid box dere, under de mobile tv? i'll show euu a pic.


hahas. now euu noe what i mean? and i was feeling awkard cos i felt that i looked stupid cramming myself up there and i was scared that my enormous head was blocking de mobile tv. haha.
than i went home, chionged my math portfolio and slept like a pig. haha.
ok, and today morning i woke up late so i took a cab tuu sch. and when i was coming out of de cab i saw mrs goh emerging frm a car. she came out, looked around at de road (ave 2) and the sch gates and went back into de car. strange.
but thx goodness she went back into de car. i didn't wan tuu explain tuu her what on earth was i doing at sch at 6.20am in de morning. summore cuming out frm a cab lerhhs. i mean, whu on earth takes a cab tuu sch at 6.05 in de morning?
if eur wondering, yeah i like to go tuu sch early. hahas.

and btw i feel really tired now and i wanna chiong hw and go tuu slp so i'm gonna finish this post tmr. hahas.

sayonara さよなら

hellos. sorri for nt giving euu an update of happenings for de past few days and nt uploading any pics. i had a pretty bad, upsetting and horrible wk. and the wk to cum wuld be worse =X
i was kinda emo for this wk.
putting that aside, i'll give euu a 'quick' update.
ok, on wed i kinda quarreled wif wenxin cos of poetry slam. i think euu've got de idea. i was pretty pissed. and wed was a bad day cos i had 3rd lang later and i was pretty tired and grumpy. and i was so very worried abt poetry slam. and we didn't rehersed.
oh, and wed ish de so called 'fried food day' in st nickks. de stalls will lyk, sell fried stuff.


hahas. if euu can't see de pic clearly, it shows 4 packets of fries, 5 seaweed chicken and 1 fish. hahas. no i'm nt such a glutton. -diaos- cos horhs, i was going to get my seaweed chicken den wenxin dey all were waving to me to cum back and i guessed that dey wanted me to take their orders and i was like, no,no,no ... i like, couldn't stand keep hlping dem get food while dey do their work its really pissing. den when i was queueing i felt very mean and relented. so i thought they wuld wan fries cos thats wad dey eat almost every wed. so i got them fries. den daphne and lih mann went to another stall by themselves to get their fries. so i ended up having to snuff 4 packets of fries. hahas. wif hlp frm min yu =]


and that was our work. hahas. we're so hardworking -ahem...-


me drinking strawberry smoothie =] my all time fave =]
and they've found a new way to make smoothie. and its so much nicer and its like, real strawberries cos euu can see de seeds inside =] taste's like cafe galliee or wadever (de cafe at de libraries) strawberry smoothie. except its less smooth and thick. but still, its nice =]
and again, dat pic modified by min yu. =X she's kinda creative ya?

and we had chem today hahas. chem is fun and physics is boring but i kinda miss mr gan hahas. he is like, sooo cute.


thats me in de chem lab. wif my protective goggles. hahas. i look like a suah ku. duno wad to do.
hahas. de 1st lesson in de lab we used a bunsen burner. hahas. very fun. although it was only boiling water =S

ok, on to thursday. i had lyk, a terribly miserable day. cos min yu, wen xin and i still wern't on speaking terms. and it was pretty awkward cos we had to do poetry slam. so we didn't prac at all. den we wanted to drop budden horhhs, i felt very bad cos like very 对不起 1 justice, especially jessica's grp cos if we said we wanted to drop earlier den dey culd do it in our place. den i told min yu then she was pretty pissed. den we had sortof a heated arguement. den i cried after recess in class cos i felt so confused abt poetry slam and other stuff and lyk, wad on earth we gonna do on stage and stuff and i'll be like, so scared. and summore at that time i really lacked emotional and moral support. and lydia asked if i was fine. hahas. and i think zhang lao shi culd tell dat i was pretty upset cos when we leaving for c.lit den she was saying last one out of de class rm wuld get 青苹果. hahas. those whu nt frm 1 justice, my form tr gt this 红苹果 and 青苹果 system everytime euu do smth gd euu get 'red apple', which is actually a red sticker paste on de notice board beside eur name. and if euu do smth bad euu get a green apple (green sticker). den back to my story, it was lyk, only me and jessica left in de classrm. den min was like, "jessica! quick quick quick!!" den i was like, of cos jessica wuld get out 1st i was still at my desk looking for my notebook den i dun really care den i just like, walked out of de classrm bo chap-ly den zhang lao shi was like, 最后一个人当然是我啦! diaos.
and we had dance enrichment. seriously difficult lorhs. we're doing 'hip hop dance'. i rather do waltz or tango, madame. hip hop is seriously difficult.
and we had to like, twist and turn our neck and body. hahas ok i'm exaggerating. but we had to like, jut out our head towards de side. and mus oso learn to jut out de upper part of our body towards de side without moving our legs oso. and other seriously many other funny stuff. and de way de lin lao shi do was like, so cool and graceful but when all of us did it we looked like suah kus.
for de exception of jessica. and sum other ppl. -diaos-
but i seriously looked like a fat dumbo elephant trying to dance and like a suah ku. haii.
and my pe shirt was like, far too big. den when i rotate my shoulders or stretch my arms or wadever funny actions we do my sleeves keep sliding down my shoulders. pissing. i shall peg it up de nxt dance lesson.
and then we left for poetry slam last min rehersals. then we had to talk to wenxin and we discussed abt wad to do in a rush. and i was like, so nervous so nervous so nervous. den we kinda improvised alot of stuff up last min and although we got sum lines wrong, i think we did a fairly gd job. hugs and kisses, ppl =] (wenxin, min yu, daphne, may shuen and myself =])
but we didn't win. sobs.
hahas. anyway i didn't expect to win in de 1st place. cos all de grps were very gd. but when mr ray announced de results i kinda hoped at least we culd win 3rd or smth... cos it was lyk, i already knew de 1st wuld be de chocococos or duno wad, peforming de oolaoompas poem. de charlie and de chocolate factory one. but smth i really angry horh, is that truth sent FIVE classes to de competition. summore their form tr, mr adrian wong or smth was judging. and all the three winning grps WERE FRM TRUTH. pissed. nt that i'm sour abt losing and like very sore loser but its true. its lyk, sum classes didn't even send a single grp den truth sent 5. and dey drama class summore like so unfair to other classes. and de 3rd and 2nd grp wern't even gd lorh, got ppl frm other classes even better den dem. de 2nd winning team was like, peforming a SKIT not a POEM and de 3rd grp was kinda dull, except for de front, where dey were saying, "tsu....na.....mi....by..... (a girl steps forward) ME! THE GREAT CHARMAINE WEE! (everyone) THE GREAT CHARMAINE WEE!" hahas. very cute. duno how to describe. but de poem was dull. very dull.
and later after sch and eating lunch, i went to northpoint to look for my sis cos that was my free day. lalala~
and i didn't feel like going home so early so i walked around, sat for abit at de food court, den shopped and went to popular to get those nice nice background paper for my chinese project. and i coundn't resist going over to de pen section. hahas. i had an enjoyable time trying pens. =] de popular at compass point dosen't let us try. dey package de pens in plastic. and i added a few pens to my collection. hahas. i'm a pen-o-holic. wakaka.


my sis =] in her winter time tee and jacket. yeah, she works as a salesperson. =]

ok. lastly, FRIDAY!!! FINALLY!!! I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS DAY FOR SOOOOO LONG =]=]=]
muahahas. i had to lug my trombone to sch today cos there was band prac. and today during lessons its like, so funny. we had chem den ms yee was talking abt heating a test tube of water den she said, "at all times, euu shld nt point de test tube towards eurself in case the water or chemicals inside spurts out. where shld euu point it to?" then everyone was like, "eur friends." wakakaka. we're evil =X hahas no larh. everyone just joking only.
today wasn't a very bad day. but it wasn't very gd either.
i got back my hist test. and i got like EIGHT OVER TWENTY-FIVE ?!?! and that's like de lowest in class... and its going into my ppr for term 2. help. god, save me. have mercy.
and then we had recess. and i hate friday's recesses. and today we had cheer prac for blue hse and it was like, no one bothered to turn up lidat den so little ppl. haha. den de comm was so fed up with us cos we culdn't be bothered to scream and yell den dey made us do de cheer until got echo. haha.
den we had history. changing tr liaos. duno whether to celebrate or mourn. that tr was like, okay okay lorhhs.
and geog oso change tr, but only for 1 term. haii. ms lee was lyk, an angel compared to mrs teo.
and after sch during band prac i felt so stupid.
cos frm this wk onwards we wun be having drills but will be practicing wif de rest of our section. den horhs diana, shiyin and olivia like so know de seniors liao and i dun even know their names lorhhs. and de seniors still dare say i very unfriendly cos i nv attend sectional recess or lunch i duno on fridays. puh lease lorh. no one even told be abt it.
then i feel so awkward practicing wif dem today. cos lyk, everyone knew each other except me. lyk i was being ostracized, left out, omitted, forgotten. so saddened.
and to cheer myself up and celebrating for surviving the miserable wk and getting thru poetry slam, i bought $10 over worth of dinner and snacks to eat. wakakaka.
i had kfc for dinner cos mum was at parents meeting at sch. and then i bought chips and peach tea. hahas, haven't splurged so much on snacks for such a long time, *winks, karen* today mus enjoy myself. hahas. i came home, bathed, chucked myself in front of de tv and watched 1 wk's worth of 施公奇案 while eating kfc. thx to my new dvd recorder and my wonderful sister whu rmb tuu tape it for me =] and herself =] wakakaka.
i'm in for a busy and exhausting weekend and wk ahead. cos this wk i pushed back alot of my hw and projects so that life wun be so miserable this wk, but de nxt. haii. but fridays is off. fridays is no hw day. fridays is indulgence day. fridays is out of bounds. fridays is meant for relaxation =]
so now i'm going to slp =]=]
and have a busy busy busy day tmr =] i'm having teen's fellowship tmr =]
its the 'care for eur brain' day
the slogan?
"get a gd night's slp"

I HAVE NEVER BEEN THIS ANGRY AND UPSET IN MY TWELVE YRS OF MY LIFE BEFORE.
I AM REALLY REALLY MAD. AND UPSET. AND BOILING.
if euu haven't gt de grasp of de situation yet, pls refer to my last post and wen xin's blog.
tears, sadness, anger, fear, despair ... emotions are overwhelming me today. today is a really bad day. and the nxt few days are gonna get worse.
wenxin, that was so nt considered training i'm 100% sure if euu told de hockey ppl euu had poetry slam they'll let euu off. but euu didn't wan to.
and this is nt juicy info. its facts. and nt all de top part was directed tuu euu.
and i was afraid that if i didn't hang up, all the vugarities wuld spill out.
and dun euu think sumtimes euu are a little bossy? and euu nv spread rumours abt ppl? euu've said so many things abt me that i've loss count.
the one i'm most angry abt was when i told euu i liked estee's hair. then when i layered my hair thin euu spreaded that i wanted tuu cut my hair cos i wanted to look like estee.
then when li lin told me that estee cut her hair i wanted to see how she looked like then euu started spreading that i wanted to cut de same hairstyle as estee.
and nt as if i'm in lurve with estee or whatever okay? yes, i miss her but i miss all de other counsellors too. and stop spreading anymore rumours abt me. if its just a little joke dun mind but its getting serious. especially when euu do it behind my back.
and dun euu think eur very insensitive to my feelings? sumtimes when i'm really feeling upset i tell euu, "wenxin... i today got jap ca1... i die liao..." or smth lidat euu jus tell me, "what has that gotta do with me?" very rudely. or smth lidat. and jus becos i got higher den euu in english euu started kicking me. does that mean that for every sub dat min yu got higher den me in i shld start giving her 5 hard knocks on her head? stop eur nonsense will euu?
this is getting unbearable.
AND PUH LEASE. YES I KNOW I DIDN'T CONTRIBUTE IN PW. BUT THATS COS EUU DIDN'T GIMME ANYTHING TO DO. AND FOR GOD'S SAKE WHU MEMORIZES THE ENTIRE SCRIPT WHEN DOING A PRESENTATION?! I AM GETTING SO PISSED. AND YES I KNOW I WAS LOOKING VERY DEPRESSED DURING PW BUT DUN EUU THINK EUU HAD A PART TO PLAY IN IT? I WASN'T LIDAT WHEN I WAS IN PRIMARY SCHOOL. AND DON'T EUU UNDERSTAND THAT I WAS SO WORRIED ABT POETRY SLAM?! AND EVERYTHING ELSE I HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT FROM JAP TO PROJECTS TO TESTS?!
AND EVEN IF I GAVE EUU A CHANCE TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO DURING SLAM REHERSALS YESTERDAY, WHAT BRILLIANT IDEA COULD EUU COME UP WITH?! DO EUU THINK ME, MIN YU AND MAY SHUEN COULD STAGGER THRU DE ACTIONS OF 5 CHARACTERS?! AND WHEN MR RAY HAD TO TIME US AND TELL US WAD TO DO AND EVERYTHING?! PLS, UNDERSTAND OUR DIFFICULTS. AND THINK. WHAT WOULD EUU DO AND FEEL IF ME AND MIN YU CHUCKED EUU, DAPHNE AND MAY SHUEN ALONE TO GO FOR SLAM REHERSALS? WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE IN THIS TOGETHER. BUT WE'RE NOT.
i am getting so emo. my sincere apologies.
i wanted to delete my previous post. but after reading what wen xin posted on her blog, i couldn't help it. i really cannot 忍 anymore. i feel that day by day, i'm being made used of, taken advantage of, and upsetting myself in the process of pleasing others. is this self respect? no.
i'm cracking. and eu're nt hlping. is this what euu call true friendship?
i feel like such a failure in life. where are my true friends? why does claudia manages to respect herself and stand up for her rights while still being so popular while i'm suffering and still nt having any true friends by my side?
when i'm miserable, whu wuld be there for me? when i'm in trouble, whu wuld hlp me? when i'm upset, whu euld comfort me and lend me a shoulder to cry on? when i'm going too slow, whu wuld be there to encourage me, cheer me on, giving me moral support all the way?
no one. nt a single soul.
why am i such a failure in life?
have i nt treated whu i look to as my best friends well? i've helped euu all when euu needed my help. i've did my best, in all that i can do for euu. i dun expect reciprocation. but instead, euu forget everything i've done. euu ignore me, backstab me, gossip abt me... is that respect?
i've had enough.
i've always respected euu all until now. i've never said anything abt euu in front of eur face. i've never backstabed euu, betrayed euu, left euu alone when euu needed help. but what good does it do to me? i'm just making myself more miserable.
looking back at my life, i realised that i've never had a true friend. besides christ.
a friend whu knows me thru and thru. whu helps me, encourages me, respects me and dosen't take me for granted. a friend which i know wuld always be there for me no matter what happens. that is what i call true friendship.
i'm such a failure in life.
and i'm really tired.
i really am.

What a Friend we have in Jesus, all our sins and griefs to bear.
What a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer.
O what peace we often forfeit, O what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry everything to God in prayer.

Have we trials and temptations? Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged; take it to the Lord in prayer.
Can we find a friend so faithful who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness; take it to the Lord in prayer.

Are we weak and heavy laden, cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Savior, still our refuge, take it to the Lord in prayer.
Do your friends despise, forsake you? Take it to the Lord in prayer.
In His arms He’ll take and shield you; you will find a solace there.

every morning, i'll tell myself. today's a new day. i mus be cheerful. i mus be positive. i mus be happy. *grins and leaps off bed and into the shower*
but that attitude never lasts.
i duno if it's my prob or others. or maybe its both. people just can't seem to get off my back and dun 惹 me for a mere few hrs.
yesh i admit i'm hot tempered. but i try to 忍. but sometimes, those people seem to take me and my slience for granted. even when i hint that i'm really pissed and can they please get off my back they'll still come and 惹 me. 自讨苦次 自找麻烦. tsks.
euu ask anyone whu know's me frm my pri sch. everytime sumone makes me angry i'll flare up and start yelling at them like a madwoman. seriously. but now i'm scared to offend ppl. and i 忍. and i'll secretly confide my feelings to another person. so as to not hurt the person whu 惹 me.
but i 忍忍忍 until i can't 忍 anymore. i'm seriously getting pissed. those ppl haf never cared abt what i think just becos i never expressed my anger towards them. they seem to take me and whatever i do for them for granted. and even haf the cheek to scold me for nt doing better. i'll give euu a scenario.
person x dumps the entire project to me. i go home and had a sleepless night finishing it. the nxt day, person x storms at me and demanded why didn't i print out the project in colour ink and why didn't i put this and that point in and why de font so small.
BUG OFF MISS PERFECTIONIST !!!! DON'T EUU DARE HAF THE CHEEK TO BOSS PEOPLE ABOUT WHEN EUU EURSELF DIDN'T CONTRIBUTE ANYTHING !?!?!?! IF EUR SO FUSSY Y DUN EUU DO THE PROJECT EURSELF ?!?!
that's what i feel like yelling at them. but i keep it to myself instead. and just say in a tired and pissed off voice, "aiyoh, so mah fan. ok larh i'll put it right tmr". and if euu tell me, "euu had better", i feel like smashing eur head into smithereens. wasn't it a clear enuf hint?
and i hate people whu are so bo chap and dun care abt schwork, meaning to say, projects. when i ask dem when are we meeting or anything they just gimme this bo liao look and say, see 1st larh. even if the deadline was tmr.
and i hate people whu talk nonsense, make euu do nonsensical stuff and fools around when doing projects when she is de grp leader summore. and dosn't care abt other's feelings and act cute and spread rumors abt others. and kaypoh in everything other's do. to all these ppl, pls keep eur nose out of my stuff or i'll snip it off 4 euu.
and lastly, i can't stand ppl whu blame others for everything that goes wrong and refuse to apologize even when its obvious that they're in the wrong and still have the cheek to argue back in that irratating 'oi dun accuse me' tone. wad kinda attitude is dat?
i really can't 忍 anymore. i'm going to explode soon.
and i feel so very stressed. today only before recess we had 3 graded tests. math, english and chinese. well, math was nt really a test. but we did a graded portfolio so i guess it was considered as one. =X and after recess was dnt which i lurved cos we're doing pratical work now. and its like, one of the less stressful subs. euu try taking like, 10 over subs and in almost every sub lesson teachers go reciting of the tests schedues and project deadlines. i feel faint.
but dnt was fun though i couldn't put my acrylic thingy right.
and then dere was lit and pw. and after sch we were supposed to go for poetry slam rehersals. but wen xin and daphne had to go, or rather, wanted to go to support their hockey seniors in their match. and me and min yu were seriously pissed. summore wen xin was sort of de leader and summore she like so bo chap lidat. like dey go haf fun while leave me, min yu and may shuen to die. yes, we almost died. thankew veri much, euu 忘恩负义 ppl. so me and min yu was like ranting to wenxin on the phone and then she still like so dun care bo chap wif that 'i didn't do anything wrong its nt my fault dun accuse me' tone. we couldn't stand her attitude and we got really mad and we started yelling. and min yu almost chucked my phone onto de ground in anger. we were seriously mad. nt really cos dey didn't attend rehersals and wuld rather go and watch a hockey match, but rather at their bo chap dun care attitude. i can't stand it. i really can't.
so we skipped poetry slam rehersals. i'm really worried abt tmr's performance. i really wanna cry. if wen xin's gonna carry on wif her bossing ppl but nt doing anything herself and so bo chap attitude i'm seriously going to refuse to go on stage and get mr ray to get on wif de programme. we haven't rehersed and we still haven't got our lines right. and i've got mild stage fright. i really dun wanna do it, i wanted to give this chance to jessica's grp. but wenxin wanted to do it and now acts so bo chap and everything. does that even makes sense?
i think i shld be getting on with my homework now. i'm really tired. the test schedues and hw and project deadlines, i'm losing track of everything. i'm so behind on my studies. i'm cracking. and i'm really tired. i really am.

Set my heart, O dear Father,
On Thee, and Thee only,
Give me a thirst for Thy presence divine.
Lord, keep my focus on loving Thee wholly,
Purge me from earth; Turn my heart after Thine.

A passion for Thee;
O Lord, set a fire in my soul, and a thirst for my God.
Hear Thou my prayer, Lord, Thy power impart.
Not just to serve, but to love Thee with all of my heart.

Father fill with Thy Spirit, and fit me for service,
Let love for Christ every motive inspire,
Teach me to follow in selfless submission,
Be Thou my joy and my soul's one desire.

A passion for Thee;
O Lord, set a fire in my soul, and a thirst for my God.
Hear Thou my prayer, Lord, Thy power impart.
Not just to serve, but to love Thee with all of my heart.

i'm in a really bad mood today. seriously.
many terrible things happened today.
1st, in de morning after assembly i accidently knocked min yu's glasses and the screw and lense came off. and she had to get thru a day wif it scotchtaped. so sorry min yu =[
and then there was pe. we were starting with napha training. we ran three rounds. everyone was fine with it but anyone looking at me run wuld think i had just ran 20 rounds or smth. it was like, i was de slowest in de entire class and the person in front of me was like, so far away. and to pass our 2.4 we had to finish it in 18mins so our target was 9mins for 3 rounds. and omg lih mann finished it in 5mins+. *salute*
i was runing panting and sweating like a mad woman. seriously.
and i was like so damm slow 1st round i was already like, so tired. den mr phee was like, decided to start running with us (de slower ppl) frm de 2nd round onwards. den i started lagging behind so mr phee let de others go ahead and ran with me. omg. so embarrassing. den he kept encouraging me, like keep telling me to mantain my pace dun care other ppl run fast ornot, and he kept asking if i was okay. and i was like, omg i'm already dying and euu still haf de energy to talk to me ?!?!
after a mere 3 rounds i was three quaters dead. like all my energy was drained and my legs felt as it it was gonna snap. and i staggered to de washroom, leaned against de sinks and started splashing myself wif water. and i drank like i haven't drank in 3 days. straight frm de tap. ahhhhs....
i'm so scared that i'll fail napha.
and then we did sit ups. mr phee told us all to do 31 but he'll blow de whistle after 1min so that we'll know where we stand. and when he blew de whistle i only completed 16. and i struggled thru 4 more and mr phee took pity on me and lemme stop. hahas. i thought i was doing a very gd impression of a woman giving birth when i was doing my situps.
and i am soooooo worried about inclined pull ups. i can barely do 1.
to add on to my misery, i found out that i failed my 听写 during hcl. zhang lao shi was like, damm disappointed wif me. well, i expected to fail cos i didn't study and my chinese sucks but i didn't know i'll fail that badly. i got like, 22 over 100. horrible rite? and i gotta retest on monday. i'm so depressed.
and i didn't attend hse meeting today cos i had poetry slam rehearsals. it went quite well. my grp (me, wenxin, minyu, daphne, may shuen) were like, trying to practice last min. and de grps competing were like, so good and dramatic, and their poems were so interesting. and when it was our grp's turn tuu perform claudia was like screaming, "GO JOAN CHAN !!!!" and everyone was so amused.
and omg man i failed my jap ca1. i got like, 11 over 45. and ca2 is just nxt wk. i am so dead. and depressed. studied for so many hrs and still nth could penetrate into my thick skull. haii.
and i still gotta write 2 essays, finish my math portfolio, dnt project, read 西游记, learn 听写 all over and study for jap ca2. and much more i can't be bothered to list.
pray for me people
i'm cracking soon
very soon

hello =] didn't blog yesterday so lemme give yer an update of yesterday's stuff.
wellll .... -pause to think - i dun think there was much interesting things going on yesterday. as usual i slacked de whole of de hols so i had to chiong my hw yesterday. hahas. typical me.
ok, so i'll tell euu abt today. hahas.
well, i was really happy to be going back to sch. i miss wearing that prettyprettypretty uniform, i miss sitting around in the lounge, i miss de classrooms the spects stands the field. in short, everything in that beautiful, spacious compound.
i'm rather attached to this sch, nt only de building, the people too.
everyone is like, so family. there's so much care and concern going round in the air and we've got such sch spirit. and the friendship and the love and everything. its realli nice. ppl nt frm st nickks, euu just wun understand it.
i simply love this sch. hahas.
and i went into the classroom and began packing my table and aranging my stuff cos i piled it all up onto my chair. normally, i spread out all my stuff all over the floor. cos i sit right at the back. hahas. i use to stack my newspapers beside my desk and put my bag on top to save me the trouble of bending down and digging my bag for smth i need. so everyone gave whatever newspapers they didn't want to me. and i got told off by zhang lao shi. hahas.
and everyone began streaming in. and it was like, so many ppl did smth to their hair lorhs. cut fringe layered hair cut hair. hahas. everyone looked so cute.
and we were like going crazy cos there was this english storytelling and alot ppl didn't prepare. but in the end mrs kwan pushed back the deadline. hahas. i lurve her. cos i'm the eng rap and i have to lurve her. if nt my life wuld be hell. hahas jkjk. i like her cos she's realli nice.
den me and wenxin went up to get the newspapers. and i found out it was easier for me to carry it on my own. haha. we passed by 4 faith but as usual i didn't haf de guts to wave to janice cos was scared that i'll look stupid. hahas. i haf a very low self esteem.
and english passed very fast cos i was like, going crazy collecting worksheets and all. and people kept shouting to me, "Joan! need to hand in essay?!" then frm de other side of de rm sumone wuld shout, "i thought essay is wednesday?!?!" den someone else wuld shout, "oi! need to hand in e-learning?!" i got pretty fed up cos i was like trying to ans 10 questions at a time and i was trying to arrange the book trails and newspaper activity but people kept piling worksheets, even those whu were nt supposed to be handed in on me. so i just chucked everything together and arranged it when mrs kwan was going thru compre corrections. and lydia, my new sitting partner helped me. thanks dearest sitting partner =]
oh yah, and i wanna talk abt zhang lao shi changing our seating arrangements. it was like, she changed me to sit at the furthest left row and put wenxin beside me. and i was like very happy then min whu was sitting behind wen xin said she couldn't see so they swapped. so i was sitting with min and wenxin was sitting with xin hui. and then zhang lao shi put them all the way to the other side of the rm. haii. saddened. nt that i dun wan to sit with euu min, dun get me wrong.
and than after a couple more swaps i was sitting beside lydia right at the back of the most left row. hahas. i like my old place more cos it was all the way to the back and i could chuck all my things against the wall.
and lydia was very worried that we were sitting at the most left row cos we were like, very talkative. hahas. yesh i like to talk during lesson alot. muahahas. but i dun think we're there for that reason, lydia.
overall, i'm quite happy with my seating arrangements. hahas.
then we ended physics and had chem. and the new tr was like, so strict lorhhs. forget bring book stand at the back. nv do hw fine 50cents. 6th time call parents.
i miss mr gan's lesson where we could slp and talk and do other hw and he wuld just go, "girllll?!?!?! are euu listening to me ?!?!" he is just too cute for words.
but honestly, this is the 1st science lesson which i paid attention to since the start of de yr. or maybe, since last yr. haha. i hate science
and i got very worried abt poetry slam. cos my grp was suppose to perform and our poem was like, so lame. sorry may shuen, don't get me wrong. its really good and funny but i dun think its suitable for performing in front of so many ppl. hahas.
and i'm like, so so so nervous. really. very very nervous.
we got very little hw today. yay! =]
i think thats all for today, sorri abt nagginess again =]
i haf hse prac tmr, and after hse prac i got band. i feel so elated and relaxed today.
cos i had props making. and i'm using it as an excuse nt to go 3rd lang. hahas.
so so so happy. =]=]

sayonara さよなら =]

ok. post continued. wakakaka x.x i'm a naggy person.


does this look much better than before? thanks sister! =] hugs and kisses =] muacks =]=]=]

so, to show my gratitude and appreciation, i rewarded her with twisties. =]


hahas. cute rite =]

okayys, so today i went to ave 4 macs wif min yu to do our dnt project. actually, me, min yu and kimberly were supposed to meet. and this so very blur kimberly forgot to turn up. totally. and she didn't even call or sms. and min yu was going fanatic trying to contact her.
i'm gonna skin euu alive on monday, kimberly lim.
so me and min yu sort of just planned what to do and everything. and then we proceeded to do hw but didn't really got anything done cos we were more like, chatting there. and then at 3pm min yu wanted to go home to watch hana kimi on youtube. haii.
i'm nt into this idol crazee stuff. rembering the 1st time i met wif min yu and wen xin, they were talking abt this person called 'hu ge' or wadever. and they kept laughing and making jokes abt this 'hu ge' and i was like, going "whu on earth ish hu ge man?" 20 times a day.
and then they started on xie ting feng. and i thought it was a girl. and they were saying that he pregnanted a girl called cecelia chong. and i was like, "???????????"
and then there was wu zun. and hearing min yu going on and on abt him was rather interesting. and min yu nearly vomited blood when i called him 'wu zhuan'
and there was this guy called 'wang dong cheng' which ppl called 'da dong'. i thought it was a cartoon character. dun tell kim. she'll come after me wif a cleaver.
ok, sorry ppl. i'm just nt into these idol crazee thingys.
anyways, when at ave 4 i went to econ and finally got my plastic bags for band.


cos the conductor made us make this blowing instrument. we were supposed to cut off the top of a mineral water bottle and tape this teeny plastic bags to the opening and blow hard into it. and the plastic bag was supposed to burst. so the 1st time i made it wrongly and used those huge plastic bags and i became hopelessly breathless after band that day. and the conductor told us we had to stock up on the bags and bring it to band. cos once it bursts we had to tape another one and start blowing again. and she recomanded that we go get it frm like, old chankee (sry abt spelling) or sum food stall sure to haf. but i wasn't going to old chankee and ask for 10 plastic bags ?!?!
so i just decided to go econ minimart to get a whole bag. saves the trouble.
so anyone frm band, when euu run out of plastic bags, never fear, joan is here =]
ask, and it will be given unto you.
btw, i'm so very slpy now. woke up at 8 today, was supposed to do hw but decided to go swimming instead.
yes, i'm still slacking.
full force ahead on hw and studying of jap tmr =]
time for some decent slp

oyasumimasai おやすみまさい =]

lots of things to post today.
1st, i wanna give euu all an update on de church outing i hlped out at on thurs.
it was kinda, ermhhs ... interesting. and no, i'm nt being sacarstic.
it was kinda fun to hang around with the kids for abit, playing like i used to when i was 5. the innocence, the fun, the quarrels. it made me miss my childhood days. =[ ....
ok,so i met elton at the mrt station in the morn. and i was leaning on a pillar and he tried to frighten me by creeping up frm behind and yelling, "ARGHHHH". i didn't even flinch. honestly.
but weirdly, today when i was at mac wif min yu the just said 'boo' and i jumped. weirdly.
so elton and i walked over to aunty dot's place. and there we were singing kiddy songs and there was a nice lady named aunty rachel invited to tell us a story. about this philipian officer and philip and about baptism. i could tell that elton was so very bored and thought that all this was so lame and a waste of time. and i was right.
but nt to me. i thought that it was so cute.
so then after the story, we prayed and went down to take the charted bus over to upper pierce reservoir. and there the fun began. hahas
1st we had this sort of treasure hunt thingy. where euu had to find clues and ans questions on a worksheet. then me and elton were split into different grps cos there had to be 1 teen to hlp out in every grp. and my grp was like, super hyper de lorh. run here run dere until i wan tuu 'duan qi' liaos. and i was supposed to take care of the kids but it was more like, they were taking care of me... =S


this is a pic of them looking for clues at a signboard


and in a phone booth

and after the treasure hunt thingy, we had lunch. and i brought my own tuna sandwiches and water. so i polietly declined the aunty's offers to feed me with fried rice, sausages, fishballs, nuggets, coke, green tea and so many other varieties of food.
and everyone thought that i was trying to lose weight or smth.
i did accept a cup of this nice raspberry flavoured desert. was smth like, shredded jelly with longans and raspberry-longan flavoured syrup water. it was seriously nice and refreshing.
ok, so after lunch we went down to the, ermhs, i dunno how to describe. it was smth like, there was this little winding steep slope that led down to a grassy plain near the reservoir. very nice scenery. i took a few pics.



ok, so we went down there to fly kites. and the weather was super scorching hot and there was no wind at all. and i was supposed to be hlping 2 girls, p3 and p4. and they were so energetic. they ran and ran around wif de kite hoping dat it'll fly and obviously, i had to run after them.


and yes, i was dead beat after that. and we still had to hike back up that so very steep slope. my kite never flew higer than 5 metres off the ground, and i felt as if i had ran a marathon.
i dread the day when the napha test comes. especially inclined pull ups and the 2.4km.
ok, so we all went back up and rest in the shade. and some of the guys were playing with remote controlled cars. and then aunty dot gave announcements about the bible corespondent courses and bible study and sunday sch. and then we prayed and gave out lollipops to the kids. it came all the way frm america. brought back by aunty shin poh. hugs and kisses, aunty shin poh! i miss euu =[ thx 4 the fruit pops =]]]
so we went back home, happy but tired. and i got really pissed off with elton.
i asked him y he didn't cum to church and teen's fellowship anymore, and he gave me a thousand lame excuses. as he had been doing for the past three mths. and i finally got it out of him. he felt that church services was simply too boring.
honestly, i find it boring to. but i make it a point to try to listen process whatever the pastor or bible study tr says. its nt that difficult when euu try hard enuf. though i've stopped attending adult's service and sneak back to junior service. which i am nt allowed at cos i'm overaged =S
and anyways, i found out that he was really irresponsible. nt only is he giving me untrue excuses to me, he lied to his grp work friends that he could nt make it to the meeting cos he had to go visit sumone in hospital. but he told me the fact was that he wuld rather slp at hme than attend the meeting.
nevermind. that is his business and i wun probe. but elton, if eur reading this, note that i wun stop my fortnightly smses to remind euu to come for teen's fellowship and weekly smses to remind euu to cum to church. and i'll continue to pray 4 euu hoping that 1 day, euu'll come back to church and someday, take the lord as eur saviour =]
do i sound very cheena? i hope nt.
i'll continue my lengthy grumbles and thoughts in another post. in case euu all out there reading this become cross-eyed. =X
cya and brb =]

guilt guilt guilt is overwhelming me.
i still haven't gotten started on my homework.
and tmr i've got a church outing. *yay*
ok, about the church outing. i'll be kinda helping out cos i'm overage =S cos the age grp ish pri 1 to 6 =X
but i'm still allowed to go to help. and elton will be going to.
haven't met him for ages. since he hasn't been going to church or teen's fellowship. hurmph.
and btw, this post'll be about all the little little little things i wanna post that has no particular topic.
i wanted euu all to note that on sch days, i'm usually so tired that after i bathe i plop down onto my bed and slp like a pig, wet hair and all. and yes, i hate hair dryers. they ruin my hair.
and i wake up at like, 1-3am to do my work. whether it be doing hw, studying or blogging. depending on the amount.
so i just wanted to inform euu in case euu call me at like, 9pm at night. so sorry about my weird slping hrs. i just dun haf the energy to do work at night. after such a long day out.
so once again, so sorry for the inconvinience caused to all of euu.

i'm suddenly on a missing ppl/things mode.
i miss my counsellors. i miss my old sch. i miss my rvps friends. i miss my table tennis juniors. i miss my science club juniors. i miss my library juniors. i miss my old teachers. i miss my dad. i miss my fish. i miss sch. i miss band. i miss jap. i miss that idiotic poon sensei.
what is wrong with me?
there's this unexplainable aching feeling in my chest. the feeling euu get when euu miss smth very badly.
i miss everything i miss in life =[
especially my counsellors.


and 6A 2006

don't look out for me in that class pic. i look horrible.

and btw, a couple of wks earlier, after setting my heart of getting rid of my pimples and blackheads, i ramsack watsons, gurdian and my hse for facial treatment tools.



oh no, don't look so shocked. i didn't buy all of that. i ramsacked the hse for it.


and these are my blackhead removing tools.

ok, so after a couple of wks i realised nth worked. so i decided to follow zhang lao shi's advice.

diy cucumber facial =X
ok, even if it didn't work, it had this nice, soothing and cooling feel. very 'shiok', especially with the fan blowing into eur face.
actually zhang lao shi told us to blend the cucumber into a thick paste and splat it over our face.
but i tried that, but i didn't get paste. i got juice.
so i just sliced the cucumber and put it all over my face =]
cheap and 'shiok'. and i think it shld work.
euu all shld try it. its good.

kayys, i think i shld end my lengthy post here. if nt i wun be able to wake up tmr for muh church outing. i've gotta wake up at 7am. *gasps*
and if i have the time i'll upload my few thousand pictures someday.
caution. look out for a even longer post.

oyasumimasai おやすみまさい =]

hahas. i suddenly feel like taking a pic of everything i find interesting and posting it with added comments =] and i haf so much stuff to say. so sorry abt my long and naggy posts.
but i still haven't even started on my hw yet. and i've got loads of it.
yes, i like to procrastinate and slack.
i haf decided to get started on my hw.
but 1st, lemme comment on smth.
my second sis whom i share a rm wif ish going to university soon. and she promised to pack the rm and her table and shelves for me. and yesterday was her off day but we went to plaza singapura to get her earphones and we went to grandma's hse 4 dinner and later she went over to her friend's hse. so she came back at 11.30 and wanted to pack de rm =S
so, i had to slp wif de lights on. which wasn't very nice. i had enuf of it when she was taking her o and a levels.
and now when its my turn that little miss priss wun even lemme hide under my blanket wif my table lamp to do my stuff.
i used to do my work in the bomb shelter until we finally went to ikea to get me a pathetic foldable table. which is currently occupied by my laptop, table lamp and books. which leaves me only a teeny weeny space do do my work. which is definately nt enuf, nt enuf tuu even fit my pencil case. and the bomb shelter became a storage centre for all my books.
and my rm ish darn cramp. me and my sis got the master bed rm cos we had to cramp in 2 beds, 2 wardobes a huge bookshelve with a table, 2 stack drawers, 1 piano and my foldable table. and lots of other rubbish.
going back to last night, my sis promised that she'll clear her table for me to do my work. but when i woke up this morning, her table was still like that.

i wanna post abt smth that happened the previous previous previous wk.
where i wanna apologize or thank the people involved.
you'll know who euu are when i'm done posting.
last last last sunday, i was piled up with loads of hw and projects and jap hw and had to study for my jap katakana test and lesson review tests thingy. cos the wk before i skipped jap class to complete a geog project. i feel so guilty *wince*
ok, lemme continue. so i had lots of stuff to do and was especially going crazy over this math groupwork project. and euu noe, i suck at math so this project was really challenging for me. my grp and i didn't really had time to meet cos we all had really tight schedues so we split the job, me and yuan ting would do question 2 and wan qi and li lin would do question 1 and we would put it together. and i really coundn't figure out the ans and everything so i couldn't do and contribute my part and i emailed wan qi last min and i suppose she couldn't do anything abt it.
and the nxt day before sch, which was a monday, i was really going crazy wif my jap homework and sch homework and everything and was screaming like a maniac when wan qi and li lin cornered me and asked me why haven't i done my part and everything and i got really fed up and i was already feeling very bad and guilty and i just yelled at them and everything. and i got into a heated arguement wif my grp about this stupid math project. and obviously, my grp felt that i was very irresponsible and reported this matter to zhang lao shi. so during the period after family time when the catholic girls were having re classes, zhang lao shi was talking abt responsibility especially when doing grp project work and that everyone should do their part and contribute and she kept staring at me and i felt really bad and guilty and yes, i cried. though i don't think anyone saw it cos no one knew that zhang lao shi was actually targeting her message at me except for my math project grp ppl. and the whole day during lessons i was like, very upset and lifeless. sorry to all who i snapped at or yelled at on that day. and all ppl whu were doing grp discussion wif me cos i wasn't contributing and didn't participate in the discussions and stuff. and thx to all whu lent me a helping hand throughout that whole day, in every little way. and during math lesson my grp couldn't present our project and i felt really bad and guilty again and i cried again. and after sch zhang lao shi asked to see me and she kinda scolded me for nt doing my part and contributing to my math project and nt doing what i was suppose to do. and she said that i was very irresponsible and wanted me to go home that day and try my very very very best to complete the project. and she asked if i had cca so i told her i had jap and yuan ting was also having jap on that day so zhang lao shi told us to discuss the project before we left for moelc but yuan ting had to meet up wif her sci grp to discuss her sci project =[ so zhang lao shi told us to discuss thru the phone after our jap class and by hook or by crook settle that math project. and i was already feeling very upset and bad and guilty and i was really mad at my math grp for reporting me to zhang lao shi and for goodness sake by the time i reach home after jap it wuld be like, 7.45pm and after dinner and i was ready to start work it wuld be like, 8.30pm? and i still had homework and everything and i couldn't take it anymore and when zhang lao shi was done reprimanding me i went back to my desk and cried. and i really really really meant i cried. and the 1st person i saw was wen xin and she sort of hugged me and i cried and cried. and wen xin, xin hui and min yu was comforting me and everything. and they were really nice to me, lyk, they didn't make me feel embarrassed or anything. and min yu had lunch wif me and we went to the mrt station together and wenxin and xin hui smsed me later and tried to cheer me up and asked if i was fine. =]
and here i wanna apologize to my math grp, wan qi, li lin and yuan ting for being grumpy and snappy and nt doing my part for the math project.
and thx to my eng and e.lit grp discussion ppl, jane, yuan ting, xin hui and may shuen for tolerating my bad temper for that day, and every day =X and sorry for my lack of enthusiasm and nt participating in the discussion
and special thx to wen xin, min yu, xin hui and all others for being so nice to me =]
i'll love euu all always =]
once again, thanks =]

hahas. i saw this in jessica's blog. me slping behind my file during science.
sorri mr gan, didn't mean to.
its just that i was too tired, and euu were de nicest, un-fiercest and easiest tuu bully teacher. =S
i vividly remember that day, it was a monday and i didn't slp for the whole previous night cos i was busy studying for my jap ca1 exam. i had a rather tiring and busy weekend. piled with homework and projects and stuff.
and on sunday i really really really counldn't finish studying for my jap ca1 and i still had homework to go cos on friday i had cca, on sat i had teen's fellowship and on sunday church and later at night went out tuu a restaurant for dinner cos my dad was going back to dubai. *sobs*
i drank 3 cups of coffee and 2 cups of milo and countless cups of water to keep me awake throughout that torturous night.
and suddenly during math lesson i had gastric. darn it. and i was groaning like crazy.
but i didn't think it was that a big deal.
so i just sat there groaning until the pain went away =S
and during recess i was rushing my incomplete e.lit hw.
and after recess was science and my brain was already screaming for mercy. and suddenly it decided to empty all the contents i poured in the previous night. so actually i was hiding behind my file with my jap books under my table trying to study. but somehow i fell asleap. and xinhui whu was my sitting partner sympathize with me, kindly helped me keep a lookout and let me slp peacefully. =] thx, my bestest sitting partner! =]
and after science was e.lit which i survived, despite my still unfinished homework. =S
and after e.lit was teamwork. by then i was three quaters dead. and Min Yu kindly dragged me to the washroom to splash water on my face =X can't afford to fall asleap during zhang lao shi's classes. will get skinned alive =S ...
and then after teamwork when sch ended and everyone was packing their stuff and everything and i was moaning cos i was already feeling so dead at the beginning of the wk and within hrs i'll be taking my jap ca1 exam. well, at least i survived it.
after sch i went for lunch with Min Yu and others and later left for moelc with xin lin. but before that we went to bishan library and i had another cup of coffee at the library cafe =]]]
ok, forgive me, my poor stomach =[
and sorry once again mr gan ... =[

Hahas. How amused are euu? This pic was taken my Min Yu in the bus, cos we were both taking 76 to the mrt station cos i was going for jap class. and she asked to borrow muh phone and i was like ... ok .... and she tried to take a pic of me secretly but i saw the light flashing so i was like, "OI. DON'T" ... well, euu can tell frm my facial expression ... =S



And here's the edited version. Also done my Min Yu. =P Without consent =S

Thinking about how Min Yu's always tricking me into doing sumthing stupid brings tears of laughter tuu my eyes man ... there was this time when we were taking the bus together, again to the mrt station cos i had tuu go for jap class. well, i dun usually walk down to ave 4 to take the bus. that was the 1st time i was taking 76 to the mrt station so i was telling Min Yu she had to tell me when we were reaching the mrt station cos i had no idea where to alight. and deciding to trick the gullible me, Min Yu was like, "huh? i'm not going to the mrt station lerhhs, i'm going to the community centre 4 tuition, didn't i tell euu? the mrt station passed 2 stops ago!" and cos i was sitting on the inside and Min Yu was sitting on the outside of the two seater thingy in the bus, i was like, "WHAT?!?! QUICK! PRESS DE BELL! PRESS DE BELL!" and i was trying to get out desperately while Min Yu refused to budge frm her seat. and i got really hysterical and was trying to shove Min Yu out of her seat while screaming at her to press the bell. hahas. and Min Yu couldn't take it anymore and she was like, laughing like a maniac. and she told me, "there's still 2 more stops to de mrt station larh, silly!" we both ended up laughing hysterically and i was really mad at her. yes, really.

And another time during morning assembly when the prefect, Clarice, whu checked our class every morn, was checking for our sch socks, and she was like, walking behind us to check. So Min Yu saw Clarice approaching me, cos i was index number 10 and Min Yu was index 11 so we were standing side by side. And Min Yu was like, "Joan! Turn around. Look! Look!" while steering me around 180 degrees and pointing tuu de sky. and after steering me around Min Yu quickly faced de front while i was foolishly staring at de sky going, "what thing? what thing?" and the nxt thing i knew i was standing face tuu face wif Clarice whu obviously thought i was trying tuu make a fool of her and she was like, "KANA SAI LARHHS I CHECKING SOCKS DUN TRICK ME LARHHS!" *sobs* that was pretty hurting, i mean, i'll consider myself tuu be a rather sensitive person so euu noe ... and i was like, going sorri sorri sorri apologetically while Min Yu was laughing lyk xiao. Haii. Fooled again.

But sometimes, Min Yu, you add fun and laughter to my life.
when i'm with euu, i find that i laugh so much more often then i usually do =]
Love euu always =]
Muacks...

hello people =] finally decided tuu get a blog uhh ... =] meddled around wif de html codes and stuff ... i'm nt very good at it =S. look forward to seeing more posts and pictures =] nth else i wanna say so ...

sayonara さよなら =]

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