damm the roaches.
can't even bathe in peace.
so kan chiong, scuttling all over de floor and overturned.
mum went, "HIYA... KAPOW.... WHAM" with the magic clean mop.
whooshit. God said, "thou shall not kill"...
does that count? i duno....

i feel so random today...
i suddenly feel so inferior... i mean, i'm not chio (pretty), i'm fat, i've got buckteeth and stuff.. and i'm so not photogenic...
especially when i hang around wif chio and 'sexy' ppl...
i think my physical appearence is horrible...
i'm nt sure abt de inside though... its hard to evaluate...

i suddenly feel that i'll miss my sec 4 trombone seniors when they leave... and 1 of the the sec 3s take over as the sectional leader.
honestly, i dun realli like both of de sec 3s...
the sec 2s are quite friendly though...
the sec 4s are okay... better than 3s larhhs....
i'm gonna miss the sec 4s .... especially my sectional leader...
she's kinda nice...
yepps... she is...
i gotta feeling the whole trombone section thinks i'm very unfriendly
cos i dun realli wave to them or what when i see dem... i just pretend i didn't see anything
cos i'm scared dat they think i'm so lame or childish or whatever when i wave tuu dem...
and i didn't go for sectional lunch or whatever cos 1st, i didn't even know abt it and 2nd, i'll feel damm awkward dere.

i suddenly feel quite excited abt band camp...
there's like, going to be 5 sec1 trombone ppl soon... i think...
if ms sia's serious abt transfering qi xuan over...
its like, so damm many... norm there's ony 2-3 ppl in trombone...
though i rather there was no band camp...
i mean, its on friday to sat. so i gotta rush hme after sch and i live in sengkang.... and then go back tuu sch and cum back on saturday...
luckily there's no foc on that saturday...
and i'm kinda scared abt it... with all de seniors and everything... i'll feel so stupid and awkward
i've got a senior phobia... i think ....

i think i'll go to the jubilate after all...
just hope i wun be sitting beside anyone i dun want to sit with
at least i can meet xin yun, sarah, vanessa, may shuen, denise .... after the concert.
hope i can hitch a ride home frm xin yun... muahahaha... jkjk....

tmr's labour day... and may shuen, min yu and angelina's coming over to my place for english pw.
yay... finally we're nt meeting at ang mo kio/bishan area...
and angelina didn't complain so much cos she lives near sengkang

i hate hair dryers... so i can't slp yet cos my hair's still wet
and i'm in no mood to do hw...
i'm gonna get slaughtered by ms sia on thurs cos i didn't bring my trombone home to prac
ahhh...
shall nt worry abt that now...
shall worry more abt jap ca3...
diediediediedie

shall start worrying abt hw and pws and tests and whatever crap dat takes up so much space of the limited capacity of my brain tmr.
i haf decided i shall prac piano now, read a storybook or smth den go slp when my hair's dry.
hadn't had time to read for leisure for a long long time...
i'm gonna prac my scales... wanna get done wif my grade 2 asap... den maybe retake grade 3...
i'm gonna start my lessons again in june.
can't wait
whoohoo...

.... sports day was wonderful. marvellous. excellent ....
as i'm blogging this post, i feel like crying.
the blue hse comm worked so hard. the whole blue hse was so united. de old blue hse captains and ppl came back to help. the wonderful blue hse banner. the cheerleaders were marvellous. the whole blue hse was screaming our lungs and hearts out.
but we lost.
weiyi was crying. grace was crying. and quite a few more blue hse comm and cheerleaders were crying. and so was a few blue hse members.
me and nien ping wanted to cry too.
and yan lin and vanessa were pretending to cry.
everone was quite emo.
the sight of de whole blue hse comm, the banner, everything, made everyone felt like crying.
to the contrary, the whole red hse was rejoicing.
according to sum ppl, red hasn't won in 18 yrs. and their comm were running round the track. so did the green and yellow hse comm.
blue was too depressed to run.
seriously i've never attended such a marvellous sports day before.
despite the rain, we enjoyed ourselves soooo much.
i love st. nickks.
its like, so got sch spirit. den though we got diff hses de whole sch was like, so united. de cheerleaders did a combined cheer routine. the diff hse comm members were hugging each other and everything.
and when blue hse's banner fell, all de other hse comm ppl went over to help.
its like, competitive but united at the same time.
thru this sports day, i realised how much i loved st. nickks.
i'll nv forget this sports day. and de blue hse comm.
i love blue hse. i love st. nickks.
i'll never forget these memories.
i love st. nickks.

i'm currently blogging at 6.30am on this friday morning while eating venezia gelato italiano. i duno what it means but it's simply 99% fat free ice cream.
my life this wk has been tiring. and fairly miserable.
loads of projects and stuff. and i failed my average ting xie score larh. 46 marks -.- ....
monday, though it was a holiday i had to go j8 for project meeting. met jasmine. pretty embarassing. met olivia at popular too =] then i was so slpy after pw i went to library to sleep =X
tues had band... got scolded by conductor larh... she very idiot larh. keep scolding de percussion ppl den she say 1 person gt no sense of rythem then she kicked her out of percussion and say, "TROMBONE! Go get senior to get a trombone let her try" gosh larh. den i tot she meant for sumone frm trombone to get her de instrument so i went band rm find my seniors. den my sec 3 seniors took so damm long to dig out a trombone for her. den dey gave me 2 both got prob ask ms sia which wan she wan. den when i go back i kana scolded larh. say i took so long waste time let de percussion person ownself go can liao and she ask me take 1 trombone den i took 2. den i explain she scold me again. walau. she very unreasonable lerh. de percussion person dun even know whu frm trombone section dun tell me she go band rm shout around whu frm trombone meh?? den i put de extra trombone on de floor den she scold me say wait sumone step on it. den i wan go back band rm give senior she say i wasting my time. diao. den in de end de percussion person had to run back band rm to return de extra trombone. den she came back den de conductor ask her go back band rm find senior again ask dem how teach her how to buzz. walau. is this band prac or marathon training man???
den wed got 3rd lang. rebecca din't turn up again....
then yest got dance lorh. idiot relief teacher. i felt more like i was doing mass pe than dance. shall nt go into details. but that teacher sucks. i lurve li lao shi now.
den during chinese lit i was falling asleap. diao. during assembly too. we had dialouge wif ms chan -.-
today, as euu can see i'm nt in sch now cos today is sports day. we're suppose to report to sch at 3pm. so if eur wondering y im awake now....

9am - 12noon : eng pw meeting in sch
12noon - 1pm : lunch outside sch
1pm - 1.30pm : do crap around sch
1.30 - 2.30 pm : extra chem lessons
2.30pm - 3pm : do crap around sch
3pm ：get ready for sports day

haii.
the essence of holidays and weekends ... gone. gone. gone.
my sis told me i had no life.
this is my life =]
i'm a busy busy busy woman
and i've gotta learn to love it =]

this is a quiz claudia sent me... abit lame.. though i shall do it anyway... =]

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME

Joan Chan Mei Yi (duh)

2.What colour pants are you wearing?

i stick to jeans, roundneck tees and shorts. currently blue shorts. no pants.

3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?

de 西厢亲缘's chinesey background music. i think the snco can do better.

4. ARE YOUR LEGS CROSSED?

partially. to be exact, 1 of it only.

5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?

a milk sweet. mmm...

6. IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?

ermhs... purple? i lurve purple

7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW?

ermhs... dark with crickets making lots of noise.

8. LAST PERSON YOU TAlKED TO ON THE PHONE??

Min yu. haha.

9. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?

is he an ah-beng or a gentleman. hahas.

10. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS?

claudia? of cos =]

11. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?

drowsy. and slacking. in no mood to do work...

12. FAVOURITE DRINK?

peach tea, ice lemon tea, milo, vitasoy (kudos to ppl whu know me well), strawberry smoothie... and alot more.

13. FAVOURITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?

eww. no way. i'm a faithful christian =]

What is your favourite sport?

ermhs... sailing, swimming...

15. HAIR COLOUR?

black... very very black.

16.EYE COLOUR?

ermhs... black too?

17. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?

no. mummy dun let =[

18. SIBLINGS?

2 sisters, 19 and 23

19.FAVOURITE MONTH?

every month =] there's always smth gd in every mth

20.FAVOURITE FOOD?

woundn't it be better to ask me what food i hate?

21. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?

in a theater, ghost rider (it sucked)... in school, 红门宴 (half of it) ... at home, she's the man ...

22. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE YEAR

my birthday, christmas, holidays .... sch days after long holidays, holidays after long sch days ....

23. SATURDAY OR SUNDAY?

saturday. sunday mus rush homework. =[

24. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?

depends....

25. DO YOU LIKE MARMITE?

pls excuse me while i consult the dictionary....

"A large pot especially one with legs"

why wuld i like a pot??

26. SUMMER OR WINTER?

both =]

27. HUGS OR KISSES?

hugs prefered...

28. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?

depends on my mood...

29. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK?

definately...

30. Who's most LIKELY TO RESPOND?

very free people?

31. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?

very busy people?

32. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS?

condo. but i'm nt rich. share rm with second sis.

33. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?

... nancy drew, chinese cinderella (nt for de sake of literature)... the bible...

34. DID YOU WAKE UP BEFORE YOUR ALARM WENT OFF ?

no. i don't even wake up after it goes off.

36. DO YOU MISS BIG BROTHER YET?

??? no brother. big sister definately not. second sis going to.

37. FAVOURITE SMELLS?

peach tea smell.... bath soap smell.... strawberry smell...

38. WHAT INSPIRES YOU?

inspirational and motivational talks, workshops and life stories

39. BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN?

eww. sweet is better.

40. FAVOURITE CRISPS?

snoopy or calabe hot and spicy, jack and jill barbercue or spicy, ruffles barbercue ...

41. FAVOURITE CAR?

no idea... as long as it dosen't smell of leather on the inside...

42. FAVOURITE FLOWER?

alot... lily (so fresh), dark red roses (so romantic), white roses (so pure), sunflower (so bright) ....

43. How MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?

in my wallet euu mean. 2. hse and letterbox.

44. CAN YOU JUGGLE

2 things, yes.

45. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE WEEK?

fridays, saturdays and sundays... aiya, actually everyday got smth gd and bad abt it ...

46. RED OR WHITE WINE?

eww. refer to question 13.

47. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?

ermhs... had science exam =]

48. DO YOU OWN A DONOR CARD?

what kind? organ or money?

49. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?

... go back to sleep ...

50. WHAT ARE YOU DOING ONCE YOU HAVE FINISHED THIS ?

blog this? then chiong homework?


the end.
hahas, yahhs its abit lame.
as i mentioned, going to chiong hw. tmr will be a busy busy day...

byebye =]

and yay, i'm taking up piano again. i'm gonna tuu start frm grade 2 all over cos i nid tu refresh my memory and regain my piano skills. but i'm only starting in june cos my classes are gonna be on friday night cos sat and sun is full and i go home late on other weekdays. and there's de jubilate, which i think i want tuu go, and band camp, which both falls on friday nights in may.

but i'm kinda worried that sum kinda activites will fall on friday nights later on, and cos my lessons can't be postponed or anything. haii. i jus haf tuu pray abt it.

and now i'll give yer an update on thurs and friday,

ok, morning jog was... ermhs.... slow.
me, yuanting and may shuen were having fun being silly. haha.
our jogging = lih mann's walking
wrong.
our jogging < lih mann's walking
still wrong.
our jogging < lih mann's strolling

ok, that sounds more decent.

and we were thinking it wuld so us more good to walk instead. so we were fooling around by walking fast and doing extravagent hand gestures to suggest that we were jogging with all our energy if de pe teachers were stupid enuf tuu jus look at de upper half of our bodies. haha.

den dance was stupid. li lao shi was looking so fustrated. cos de new dance moves we did were very difficult and everyone was doing rubbish larh. den li lao shi got super irratated. and li lao shi was looking at jessica most of de time and smiling at her. and de kinda looks dey were exchanging suggested that ...... uh huh .....

i hate dance. i like de warm up part. but i hate dance.

and then xi you ji was nt veri okay. we did it in de ava rm before c.lit. i was pasting all my ugly pictures on de board. then i forgot all my lines so i kept looking at my cue cards. and i didn't point to my pictures while saying cos i scared i got distracted. and them super funny larh when i going tuu say finish den le tian dropped a tooth. den ho yan lin was laughing den i tot she was laughing at me =X

den during c.lit we watched de hong men yan video. i liked it but we stopped halfway to start de lesson on de liu bang person. i shld consider buying de video and watching it at home. i liked it alot.
budden i was gonna fall asleap while zhang lao shi continued her lesson. cos i ony slept 3.5 hrs de night before larh. thx tuu xi you ji.

and on thurs afternoon i was rushing geog project. i wanted tuu slp 1st den wake up and do at night cos i was really really sleepy but clarissa wanted tuu see it before she slept which is like, 10pm so i had tuu rush it. i coundn't finish it before she slept so... haiis...
then i was so frigging slpy so i slept at 10.30 after finishing geog and set my alarm at 2am to wake up and learn ting xie. i slept thru de ringing but sis woke me up at like, 2.30am or so when she was going tuu slp. i tried to study in de living rm but i was really hot and sis thought so too so we on de aircon in de rm and i was studying under de table lamp while sis slept but after half an hr, i fell asleap right on de table.
neck felt like it was gonna break and i was freezing when i woke up, which was like, 5.30am.
and i had to catch de 5.45 bus and it took me 2mins to get down tuu de bus interchange so i had 12 mins to prepare. i had a 2min shower, 2min teeth brushing wore my uniform, grabbed my name tag, and started shoving my stuff into my bag cos i usually pack my bag in de morning. and i just anyhow tie my hair while i usually sit in front of de huge mirror above de organ in de living rm for 15mins every morning, going into the trouble of flattening the bumps in my hair by combing and pulling vigorously and pinning up the stray strands (my hair is layered) with clips.
and i couldn't find my sch socks in my sock drawer so i had to wear mildly damp socks tuu sch. eww.

then on friday during assembly horh almost de whole sec 1 cohort brought down science stuff to study cos got science test on dat day. and for our class, ting xie lists also. and zhang lao shi nt happy larh confiscate all our stuff.
then alot ppl were super angry with her, especially yan lin and le tian. i shall nt go into details but i dun blame them for being so emo. i wuld if i were them.
all those ppl whu brought down stuff to study got 2 'green apples' each. damm it.
she was giving them out during chinese lesson. them she was saying we were so disrespectful cos we were studying while mrs goh was talking. i mean, i wasn't even studying when mrs goh was talking larh, she give warning for us tuu keep i already put my ting xie list into my pocket liao. i damm angry larh. i hate ppl whu dun check properly start accusing ppl. i hate false accusations.
and alot, ALOT, of people wern't very honest.
even ppl whu did nt get their stuff confiscated were suppose to go admit it with integrity. but i am sorry to say that half the class didn't.
and some even wormed out of this by telling zhang lao shi that they brought down stuff to study but didn't study. what crap. idiots. bootlickers. damm it. i'm really angry.
and when she ask us to go up and take our 'green apples', min yu and i were looking at each other. den we really didn't wan tuu go. den min yu was like going, "JOAN CHAN...." in dat warning tone. and she said it super loud den ppl were looking at me. i was pretty angry larh. i mean, do i look like i haf such little self respect, honesty and integrity? do euu suspect that without eur warning and knowing i wuld nt own up that i brought my stuff down tuu study? i was just super indignant cos i wasn't even studying when mrs goh was talking. i mean, we go down at 7.10 when everyone are like, just come to sch and going up tuu class to put bags and dun tell me we stand there for 15 mins doing nth mehhs? waste time larh. and i already put away my ting xie list when zhang lao shi warned us to but i still got 2 'green apples'. is that fair? NO.
nevertheless, i'm proud of myself and min yu and the very few others who owned up all the same when our stuff was nt even confiscated.
and those ppl whu's stuff wasn't confiscated and did not own up, or wormed eur way out by bootlicking, shame on euu. i haf absolutely zero, ZERO, respect for euu. just for avoiding 2 'green apples' eur throwing away eur self respect and dignity. tsk tsk.

and we had health check during geog. de nurse was quite rude. and so was jane. lemme rant a little.
WHY DO PEOPLE DESPISE FAT PPL SO MUCH? WHY DON'T SKINNY PPL GET DESPISED? HUH? WHY IS THE WORLD SO BIASED AGAINST FAT PEOPLE?? SO WHAT IF I'M FAT? I'VE STILL GOT FEELINGS, EMOTIONS AND DIGNITY! AND IF EUU RESPECT EURSELF EUU SHLD SHOW ME AND OTHER FAT PEOPLE SUM RESPECT SO THAT THEY CAN RESPECT EUU OKAY?!

phew. that felt good.

band was... i cannot say it was good.
we had drills. disaster.
we sec 1s got scolded like what larhs... wanted tuu cry liao.
cos that was de 1st time we were actually marching. then our squad commander keep saying stuff dat made us laugh. so we laugh larh. den dey scold us say drills is serious stuff cannot laugh only commander allowed tuu laugh. wad logic is that huh? den dey scold us never put in effort. hello? i can lift my head high and say that i put in 100% effort okay. okay, i cannot say that everyone was putting in effort but most of us did. but it was really difficult to get our lines straight and everything. and den dey say we swing arms look like we were jogging or exercising or going to de market. den of cos everyone laugh den dey scold us again. den my stray strands of hair were blowing around and my glasses kept sliding down very irratating den i was clipping my hair den si min was like, "in squad horh, cannot touch hair de okay?" diao. i frigging embarrassed larh. and sum ppl horh, i mus admit, abit attitude prob larh. dun put in effort still act so childish and immature. den horh si min and ulyssa were very upset den we got scolded my pamela. she said that we had attitude prob cos when our squad commander (si min and ulyssa) scolded us den we still argue back and stuff i shall nt elaborate but its pretty nasty stuff. den she keep scolding us say we never put in effort and nt serious. it was like, so irratating i had to tolerate enuf false accusations for that day already larh.

and i hate de class tee's colour. it sucked.
we wanted orange. den dey had to ask if we wanted it pale or bright.
de votes were almost equal except for a few extras over the pale side. so we had pale orange.
its nt abit orange larh. its like, an ugly and dark shade of yellow.
i rather haf bright yellow or orange.
but de class tee pics was nice. though sis thinks its childish. but de back de names part abit plain larh.
it costs $12. but de materials quite good. very soft. much much much better than our hse tee. and de neck isn't very big so people stop trying to guess and peep at my bra colour everyday pls. actually, de neck is really small. my hse tee one is okay. and my pe tee's neck is frigging big. but i still prefer polo tees.
i think i finally got the size right.
my hse tee's sleeves are too big and de shirt is too long. my pe tee is frigging big in every way.
but i still hate de colour. its gonna look horrible wif our pinafore.
I HATE DE COLOUR I HATE DE COLOUR I HATE DE COLOUR.
I WANT ORANGE.
RAH.

i shall nt go any further cos my second sis is waiting to use my comp. eldest sis borrowed hers cos her's conked out.
i think her life is as bad as mine.
her comp conked out, and according to mum her $15 dollars worth of petrol was stolen by a pizzahut guy. and she reported it to the police but dey didn't care. so she's very angry.
haii. we both haf a life full of misery and unfairness and indignation.

shall chiong hw tmr. den although monday ish a st. nickks holiday tuu celebrate gd o lvls results, i'm gonna meet min yu, angelina and may shuen for english pw meeting frm 9-1 at j8, and had around frm 1-4, then haf 3rd lang frm 4.30-6.30, then reach home at 7.30.

haii. my life is miserable.
and angelina has been complaining alot. abt everything frm de time to the venue. and abt meeting on a holiday in de 1st place.
jus shut up and get to work, girl.
stop complaining. cos my life's worse than yours.
thankew.

i so regret... letting my parents transfer my out of marymount convent.

today during dnt it was super funny. cos mr tay was asking if we were loyalty den we were like, "NOOOO. WE'RE JUSTICE" then jane was saying does mr tay even teach loyalty den i was like, duh. if mr tay dun teach loyalty den whu teach. den jane said, "MS GWEE" den me, denise, jane and yan lin were laughing like mad. den we were saying, cos now for art we're doing carving smthing den everytime got ppl accidently cut themselves wif de carving knife. den everytime ms gwee will nag, and say, "some people keep cutting their fingers because they never follow instructions blah blah..." and she'll scold dat person say, "see larh see larh, nv follow instructions now cut your finger" while dat poor person wuld be standing down dere bleeding and moaning while she scolds. den denise was saying if ms gwee teaches dnt then she'll be saying, "some people keep sawing themselves because they never follow instructions" and keep scolding those whu hurt themselves, "see larh see larh, nv follow instructions now saw off eur fingers..." while dat fingerless person stands there in agony. she is like, quite idiotic larh. den cos ms gwee teaches home econs den jane said maybe we'll haf a beauty lesson and learn tuu file our fingernails with a safe edge file, then with sandpaper and buff them with de machine and wax. and then we said that she'll teach us how to polish our teeth with abrasive paper... wakaka. we were laughing like crazy and jane thought she was gonna puke out her fried food...

then there was quite a number of project work probs... dun wanna elaborate.

and i can't wait for my BIRTHDAY. though its still 23 more days to go. =]
and oh, de jubilate falls on my birthday =]
i think i'll go for it. if anyone frm our class is going wif me =]

and i've set my heart on taking piano lessons at yamaha (sry abt spelling) or sonarae (sorri abt spelling again) . cos my sis piano tr dosen't accept sloppy work. and i think i gotta start over frm grade 2. cos i've forgotten my scales and lost my sight reading abilities. though i doubt i've ever had any =S

and anyway, dun mistake that min yu is being very mean due tuu my last post cos she was jus joking. and she didn't tell jasmine that i lurved her cos i didn't wan go toa payoh hub wif her. i suppose she jus said it for fun =]

and now mus go chiong xi you ji liao.
so dead until now nt finish summarising.
tmr mus chiong ting xie.
=S
i am feeling half dead...

but still, life is a blessing =]
i'll treasure it =]

hellos =]
i'm sorri de pics are still nt up yet =S
and i'm sorri for nt blogging for so long.
i'll give yer an update of de past week's happenings.
1st, we did 2km last wk. i clocked 14.32s.
was jumping for joy larhhs. okayys, nt realli. no energy liao larh. but i was realli happy.
budden horh, i duno what happened when i did 2.4km this wk larh. i clocked 20.32s.
FOR GOD'S SAKE. WHAT HAPPENED ?!?!
when i ran 2km it was already 16.32
what on earth.
i think i was such a disappointment.
mr phee wanted de whole class tuu get silver.
and i culdn't even pass.
i'm so scared that i'll fail nxt wk.
and band got silver for syf.
it was like, after sch today then sarah suddenly call me say band got silver den de seniors were crying or smth larh. den me, xinyun, sarah and a few other ppl went tuu de forum. i was like, so awkward larh. so i was jus standing outside de dnt rm looking at dem at de forum.
it was heartbreaking tuu see de seniors sitting there looking so sad. like they wern't even crying or anythin larh. dey were just sitting dere staring into space looking helpless. it was total silence there. i rather dey were crying, moaning, screaming... whatever. silence can be very scary.
and the rumour was that our conductor, ms sia wanted tuu resign.
i will gladly chip in for her farewell gift. if anyone would be bothered to buy one.
what's wrong with st. nickks peforming arts conductors or instructors and sports teams coaches arhhs?
1st, de hockey ppl told me dat their coach wanted tuu quit cos dey didn't get champion in de competition.
then now ms sia wants to resign.
whats wrong with them?
can't they take failure positively? it isn't the end of the world if we lose. we can always try again.
i think st. nickks ppl has high expectations over everything.
de chinese orchestra ppl were crying jus cos dey didn't get gold wif honours and dey got a gold.
now de whole band looks like dey were mourning over sumone's death.
what's wrong with everyone?
oh, anyway, dad is back =]
and he bought alot of chocolates with him =]
when there's dad, there's chocolate =]
when there's mum, there's healthy soup, herbal tea, brown rice...
well, i guess its rather balanced.
dad's going back in 2 day =[
oh, and sec 1's gonna start full band prac very soon. i think.
cos syf is over.
god bless me.

i hope that my post is nt too long =S
now mus go chiong ipw speech, xi you ji and geog project.
JIA YOU.

byebye =]

where has all my old friends gone?
especially the best ones.
i miss euu, my dear old friends.
i want time to turn, where we still had idiotic tuition classes together. planning suicide 'excursions' together. copying homework, slacking, smuggling food and peach tea and sweets to class. critizing old huang. crying on de phone when we wern't allowed to go out together. snuggling together in de comfy bed and blankets in our last chalet party. pigging out on coffee and potato chips and chicken wings and marshmallows. shopping for bday presents together. watching movies, taking neoprints...
where has all those bittersweet memories gone?
we've drifted apart.
we've got seperate lives. we dun belong in the same world.
you've got eur lao po, eur gd friends. euu go shopping together, movies together, do projects together. in short, euu all do everything together.
we've grown up. we've got new lives. more freedom. more independance.
i'm out of de picture.
nevertheless, i miss you.
the new can never replace the old. i miss the times that we had.
i miss you.

hello people.
i know i haven't been posting.
and uploading my pics.
my sincere apologies.
i jus haf no time.
and when i haf de time, i'm too lazy to post.
=S
will put up de pics sumday.
haha.
and will change skin during june hols.
zzzz....

this is the day.
the day of the Lord Jesus' resurrection.
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oh, those dots represent my cheem and cheena explanations about the significance of easter.
cos i dun think euu ppl wuld be interested in reading it.
cos euu all already had tuu endure my crapping abt gd friday. =S
anyways, to all my friends, look out for easter surprises tmr =]
and will upload pictures asap.
i promise, asap.
ps: asap is a huge time frame.

its a happy happy day =]
the day we commerate Jesus's death
he died so that death may die
for you, for me, for all of us
he cleaned us of our sins, and exempt us frm death
frm de eternal sufferings in the lake of fire

Isaiah 53:6
All we like sheep have gone astray;
we have turned every one to his own way;
and the LORD hath laid on him the iniquity of us all

This is the day
brothers and sisters in christ
lets all raise our hands to celebrate the lord's death
because he died
so that we may live

Wounded for me, wounded for me,
There on the cross He was wounded for me;
Gone my transgressions, and now I am free,
All because Jesus was wounded for me.

Dying for me, dying for me,
There on the cross He was dying for me;
Now in His death my redemption I see,
All because Jesus was dying for me.

Risen for me, risen for me,
Up from the grave He has risen for me;
Now evermore from death’s sting I am free,
All because Jesus has risen for me.

Living for me, living for me,
Up in the skies He is living for me;
Daily He’s pleading and praying for me,
All because Jesus is living for me.

Coming for me, coming for me,
One day to earth He is coming for me;
Then with what joy His dear face I shall see,
O how I praise Him—He’s coming for me!

and i look forward to his coming =]

1 Thessalonians 4:16,17
For the Lord himself shall descend from heaven with a shout,
with the voice of the archangel, and with the trump of God:
and the dead in Christ shall rise first:

Then we which are alive and remain
shall be caught up together with them in the clouds,
to meet the Lord in the air:
and so shall we ever be with the Lord.


today is a happy happy day =]

i'm heartbroken.

-sms conversation between joan and elton-

joan: (for the 3rd time) so euu going to gd friday service?
elton: sorry can't
joan: why?
elton: i'm going to watch a play wif my sch today and it ends at 12 midnight
joan: service is at 10am tmr.
elton: by the time i reach home today its gonna be 2am
joan: euu'll still be getting 7hrs of slp. and euu can slp all euu wan after service.
elton: see how 1st
joan: dun see how me
elton: den dun ask me
joan: can't euu just gimme a straight ans
elton: no!
joan: fine, be like that.
elton: thx, i will continue to be like that.
joan: then that's eur prob
elton: so euu can just stop asking me
joan: why shld i? i dun believe that every single saturday and sunday euu wun be free
elton: well, just freak off.
joan: if euu think that i'm bugging euu it's just eur perception
elton: right, since its my perception euu jolly well know how much i hate it so stop
joan: what so hateful abt asking euu to cum for church or foc
elton: nothing... ... bitch
joan: if euu think jus by calling me a bitch i'll stop asking euu tuu cum to church, eur wrong

-end of conversation-

dun be mistaken. we're jus good friends.
but friends dun call euu a bitch. dey shld be happy when euu sms dem. dey shld be looking forward tuu seeing euu. dey shld nt give excuses nt tuu meet euu, or go tuu church or foc with euu. dey shld nt think eur hateful.

so what are we?

hello people =]
haven't been posting this wk. whoops.
this wk was, ermhs quite okay.
on saturday and sunday i went tuu wenxin's hse for ipw. and her mum kept stuffing us with snacks =] hahas. thx auntie =]
then on monday i had jap. i wanted so badly tuu slp larhs. den poon was talking abt an essay we were gonna write, on 'my school'. aiyoh. die liao
i met my band senior on de bus =] i think her name is zhu er and i noe she's frm 2 purity. and we were both looking awkward larh cos i dun dare talk tuu her or what. but i like her, she's very nice =]
den on tues there was chem. hahas i'm beginning tuu like chem more and more now man. so freaking interesting lorhhs. ms yee was saying abt putting ice cubes into a boiling tube and heating it den so funny cos she was saying, "if its too big to fit into the boiling tube, smash it with a hammer" den we misinterpreted it as, smash de boiling tube. den we were pretending to smash de boiling tube with our hammer. wakaka.
then dere was pe larh. before pe i was like so freaking nervous cos we were gonna run 1.6. den summore got time limit de lorhs.
i ran with grace. we clocked 11.32 mins. YAY HOORAY WAHAHAHA SO HAPPY.
ok, it might be very extremely slow tuu euu larh but its really fast to me lorh i use to run 1.6 in 14+ mins larh. and although mr phee's target was 11mins i still felt very happy. and summore i ran without stopping to walk.
i think sum ppl thought i was so weird. came in last in class ran 32s off target run until so slow still happy like i won de nobel prize lidat.
but no matter what, i'm proud of myself. of my hard work and perseverance. and thank the lord.
i was praying for strength as i ran. hahas.
then at night i was kinda pissed larhs cos of ipw report. and i yelled at wenxin and min yu. i'm so sorri ppl =[ didn't mean it. was jus irratated with sum ppl whu didn't contribute and hlp and can't even be bothered lidat larh. euu noe whu i mean...
then on wed cos i only slpt 3hrs de night before i was frigging slpy. and i can't stand math lessons now larh. mrs XXX is so irratating lorhhs. whole day wan us multi task. summore everytime she give us so little time to do work den when she ask if we done den i say no den she'll just pretend nv hear even though i say super loud.
den why ask us in de 1st place. haii.
and i was so tired that i slpt during dnt after i was done with my portfolio. and mr tay kindly let me cos i was done with my arcylic bowl thingy =]
and during pw zhang lao shi treated us pizza =]
3rd lang. didn't meet senior =[ went home. slept like a pig =S
today morning i woke up late. and pissed my sis cos my alarm was ringing non stop =S wakaka. den i took a cab tuu sch. $7.50.
going broke soon.
then vanessa (koh) was playing with jane's and my hair. then it was like, i thought i didn't haf dandruff anymore cos i was using my sis's clear anti dandruff shampoo.
i was wrong larh. found out i still had when i looked at my comb. jane and vanessa were freaked out.
my sincere apologies.
i'm gonna get them the head and shoulders anti dandruff shampoo in case they catch de dandruff virus frm me. and hopefully head and shoulders works better den clear.
my apologies again to jane and vanessa.
then we had morning jog. quite okay larh. although legs very tired but i can jog without stopping now =]
dance enrichment = disaster
recess = drink pepsi max
although i hated it. but i had to get a blue can for hse meeting that afternoon.
then chinese lit was so funny larh. zhang lao shi was talking abt qin shi wang den quite interesting. den wen xin was slping. wakaka.
sorry. i feel so mean.
but it was really funny larh. cos pan lao shi was like, tickling her den she still nv wake up. den zhang lao shi woke her up and was saying we very poor thing so tired until mus slp during lessons.
i find zhang lao shi quite biased.
cos patricia horh, everytime slp in class den zhang lao shi will scold her. summore patricia ish like, in de midst of table tennis competition larh. haii.
and i feel that zhang lao shi likes tuu pick on me alot. seriously.
if euu all wanna know in what way, ask me cos i can't be bothered to type it all out.
ok, then there was hse meeting and we were making props. den de sec 1s were making streamers. den me and patricia were working together and vanessa, elspeth, may shuen, wen xin, nien ping, yan lin and le tian were doing together. so we did like, super fast.
we were like, so united. 1 peson measure 1 person cut. that was like, so much faster den doing individuality.
1 justice blue hse ppl (including myself), i'm so proud of all of euu =]
and today i did many weird and embarrassing things.
1st horh. i was walking on de huge steps at de forum carrying a stack of newspaper after hse meeting. den i slipped a step down and lost my balance and fell flat on my face. and i went like, "oof (slipping a step down), whoops (drops newspapers), AHHHHHHHH (falls flat onto the step).
oh man. so pai sae. den a teacher and a sec 4 blue hse comm came over tuu ask if i was fine. ahhh...
but thank de lord i didn't roll down all de steps or smth lidat. hahas.
den later smth else happened which i felt even more embarassed. wakaka. euu wanna know euu ask me =]
then after sch had lunch with min yu. den i went home.
there's gd friday service tmr =]
and i've been trying to get elton tuu attend it. but somehow, he can find thoudands of excuses to nt go to church or teen's fellowship.
but i wun give up. perseverance is the word.
i'm getting quite good at it =]

will upload photos asap. =]

sayonara さよなら

Alas! and did my Savior bleed
And did my Sovereign die?
Would He devote that sacred head
For sinners such as I?

At the cross, at the cross, where I first saw the light
And the burden of my heart rolled away,
It was there, by faith, I received my sight,
And now, I am happy all the day!

Was it for crimes that I had done
He groaned upon the tree?
Amazing pity! grace unknown!
And love beyond degree!

At the cross, at the cross, where I first saw the light
And the burden of my heart rolled away,
It was there, by faith, I received my sight,
And now, I am happy all the day!

Thus might I hide my blushing face
While His dear cross appears,
Dissolve my heart in thankfulness,
And melt my eyes to tears

At the cross, at the cross, where I first saw the light
And the burden of my heart rolled away,
It was there, by faith, I received my sight,
And now, I am happy all the day!

But drops of grief can ne’er repay
The debt of love I owe:
Here, Lord, I give my self away
’Tis all that I can do

At the cross, at the cross, where I first saw the light
And the burden of my heart rolled away,
It was there, by faith, I received my sight,
And now, I am happy all the day

Joan Chan
thirteen'
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sngs
1 Justice
snsb trombone

nike sling bag
myuk sling bag
new wallet
bigger pencil case

God
family
friends
sngs
1 Justice 07
1 Justice 07 counsellors
snsb, trombones

Min Yu
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