.Wednesday, October 03, 2007 ' 7:10 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
why is life so unfair?
the tumour turned out to be cancerous
3 more months.
even with radiology, 5 more months
i can't understand why. why is God so unfair towards some?
behind my mother's calm manner, i could tell that she was extremely upset.
and behind my indifferent words, the emotions were whirling inside me
and speaking of my own life.
i can hardly stand it anymore
she's never dressed appropriately. bottom to high, top to low. puhlease. this is a school for heaven's sake.
lessons were nt bad, though tried very hard nt to fall asleap.
life is seriously unfair.
got back our hist paper today
25/40
while some ppl only studied in e morning just before e test, they could get so high marks. when others study like shit until they start crying and screaming and get totally conked up they get shitty marks. like me
with jap oral and paper and geog that wk, and coming hme at 7.30pm e day before e hist review, i had to study and cram like total shit and mug like my life depended on it and threw away hours of precious sleep.
and i ended up with shit marks
isn't life plain unfair?
stayed back after school till 5 to do some work.
random note. Joan loves understanding people
i hope i didn't hurt anyone with my harsh words and cold attitude today.
trashed with lots of pws now
still stressed like shit
this is how horrible life is
