.Friday, October 12, 2007 ' 6:30 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
i can't stand my laptop anymore. its freaking laggy.
games carnival. started off feeling excited and nervous abt table tennis. haven't been playing for a long long time.
arrived at sch. had announcements abt e games carnival. turned out that e whole sch was having. i didn't know that it was such a huge affair.
so then me, kmy, denise, daphne, mayshuen, wanqi and patricia went to table tennis arena. i was quite miffed abt the way things went cos 1. they wern't following proper rules. 2. things were very very messy. there were 9 tables all competiting at e same time and ppl screamed and yelled and walked and sat around like nobody's business. as a result, there wasn't enuf space to move. gah. i swear the next time i shall participate in more games. i was pratically holed up in e tt arena nt being able to go anywhere cos the schedue was so disrupted and everything was so disorganized that we didn't know when we're supposed to play and blah. well then i played 3 matches, i think it was against charity, wisdom and loyalty. paired with daphne for charity and loyalty but paired with kmy for wisdom cos wanqi had to run off halfway for soccer. i lost to wisdom. i think it was really unfair cos we started late. gah. everything was really freaking disorganized. the empires were all missing like what and like we didn't go according to the normal 11-11 rule but we played for fixed time. which is unfair cos some ppl play faster and blah blah. for wisdon's match our empire was missing in e end patricia had to be. cos we started late, ended early. if nt our score wuld have ended up as 10-9 instead of 6-7. RAH. damm pissed. + the person i was playing against was diana and her friend. :S
mr phee kept stressing abt players being missing. for our case in table tennis its more like the empires were missing. *pissed*
after that loyalty, purity, justice and dilligence got into semifinals. i played semi with daphne against dilligence, which turned out to be shiying's friends :S was frigging nervous like shit. like everything was getting so real. i've never sweated so much or got that scared in a tt competition before. duno what happened. maybe last time i didn't give a damm abt rvps and whether i won or lost was my business. but now its like the whole of 1 justice was there rooting for us and screaming and doing kallang wave and blah. like i didn't want to let them down. well we won (: then we had finals which me and daphne didn't play cos we only needed 1 single and 1 double. and in e end 1 JUSTICE WON FOR TABLE TENNIS FINALS! WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS! YAY!
and we won 2ND IN OVERALL. YAY AGAIN!
but, i was disappointed.
i played like shit today. like a thousand times worse than my usual standard. maybe i couldn't stand e ppl screaming and yelling and walking/sitting around. it irked me alot. maybe i was nevous. i think i was fine when i was practicing with mayshuen and wanqi. i kept hitting out and blah during e real match and i even had problem serving. what was wrong with me lah... i feel so pissed with myself.
maybe cos i can't like push myself further cos those ppl that i was playing against was actually my friends. my fellow cohort mates, section mates. i didn't want to seem conceited or show-off. playing the match with ____ irritated me. why are ppl so concerned abt winning? okay maybe i am too, but doesn't she give a damm abt my feelings? why hate ppl who are competitive when you are one yourself?
i can feel the relationship among all of us straining and i'm bursting from keeping all their faults i've always overlooked.
random note.
why are ppl's minds so hard to fathom?
and its funny how i hate the attitudes of sports ppl when i used to be one myself. well, maybe its just cos i hate myself :D
i realised how many ppl or classes do i actually hate. i mean, nt really hate e class or person itself but the things that they do. sigh. i must start trying to look at things frm a different perspective and look at the better side instead.
and _____ have serious attitude problem. i don't like them.
i shall go and do 剪报s now
thanks vanessa koh for helping me print (:
random note: toothache ): i don't dare to go to the dentist... i rather you tell me its just becos my front teeth are growing at an alarmingly fast rate.
