.Saturday, October 20, 2007 ' 8:15 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
here i am today.
with all the time in the world abit of time cos sis is sleeping and i've gotta prac piano. well it was tough trying to force myself up in the morning but i managed (: went back to sleep a little while after by passing it of as a short nap. haha.
ok, lets start off on wed.
had jap remedia after sch. was sad cos i had to miss the movie and apparently i don't have time on the other days to go watch ): i'm beginning to think band and 3rd lang just don't go hand in hand. maybe its time i gave up.
i loved the remedia teacher so much! she is so so so so much better than poon. well she seemed a little angry cos i forgot to bring my remedia worksheets but she didn't scold but reminded me kindly. and the way she asked questions was not how poon does. poon gives you e feeling she is trying to torture you and pick on you and an answer is a must, whereas this teacher asked kindly and you can say you don't know and she'll teach you nicely. so unlike poon. I LOVE HER TO BITS. i hope i'll get her as my jap tr nxt yr (: and she speaks simple jap during lesson so that you can learn better. and speaks fluent english to help you understand sometimes too. omg i am obsessed with her. and she plays games with us and uses interesting teaching methods. I LOVE HER SO SO MUCH :D
i hope she'll be teaching us nxt remedia too (:
thusday. well colours ceremony was kinda boring, and i stupidly forgot to wear my family tee. and then kmy started dao-ing me and got sad... well actually it was kinda a misunderstanding cos she thought i was dao-ing her ): i should learn to be more sociable! went to the asian civilisation museum. nice place, looked like a palace frm e outside. i saved a place right at the back for kmy (though at that time i thought she was angry with me but it didn't seem nice to sit with denise and leave her alone, and she thought i was angry with her so she sat at the front). so kmy came to the back and i let her sit inside beside denise inside. and then
zhangmanli banished me to the front cos very unluckily i was sitting in the middle so when the bus jerked i wuld fly to the front.
drats. i felt like telling her, don't worry i've got a chao high inertia, but i don't think that was a good enough arguement for her so i went to the front to sit with chingyan ):
then my whole waterbottle exploded again. thank goodness it was plain water this time. but i swear this time i felt more irritated than ever cos i was already upset before. had to clean up sitting down and everything with so little space. damm. everything was wet and i had a hard time ):
was one of the quietest excursion bus rides i ever had ): and seeing and hearing ppl laugh and have fun made it worse.
then hohum arrived at the museum. i think i was too in my own world. suddenly heard zhangmanli annoucned who doesn't have a group and i stupidly burst out, "张老师我没有组！” drats. don't know what made me say that to her cos normally i wuld have more comman sense. maybe i was just too... upset. cos i still tot kmy was angry at me and i was puzzled why. so then suddenly denise burst out, “他有组！” haha. zhangmanli got super amused and commented that i looked like i hadn't woken up today. lol. i think its becos of that + my family tee prob.
wandered around the museum. was quite dark and i tried to do the worksheets. well ended up handing it in incomplete. then i felt a little giddy cos i was walking round and round without knowing where i was going. sigh
i sat alone on the way back in the bus ):
band was good. she didn't come, so we had sectionals in the classrm. was quite slack. i found out that i can't reach high notes. haha. i want to be in 2nd! not 1st, shiying. well despite what regina said, i still want 2nd (:
i think we slacked really really much. the sec1s might be playing 3 songs out of 6 for the christmas concert. i saw the christmas scores. a joyous holiday, that holiday season and grease. joyous holiday looks okay, holiday season resembles sousa with a mixture of songs, grease looks... not too good. its 4 pgs long -.- but i think it sounds rather good (:
saw the trombone section memories book thingy. i was proud to have my birthday written big and fat on it. hahaha. was cos my birthday was the date of jubilate IV (:
friday.
went to sci centre. our class got split and i ended up doing physics. sigh. on the way there i sat with angelina. i was freaking tired and tried to sleep but she kept talking and talking. haha. then we arrived. went for physics workshop on forces. quite interesting with the experiments and stuff. i think we saw some of it in p6 already though. the boring parts i played bingo with iynhuii and yanlin (: got happy then cos kmy suddenly asked why i was angry. and i was like, 'huh? i thought you was the one who was angry." hahaha. kinda cleared up the misunderstanding. went to auditorium and had a lecture on hurricanes. i seriously liked e audi. it was so cool and steep. i slept through half of the lecture cos the seats were so comfy. :D
went to omni theatre after that to watch a flim on hurricanes. was quite good but made me very giddy.
on the way back, i insisted that i needed to sleep despite angelina pestering me to talk to her :D
drills. yay (: i missed drills
shiying, diana and olivia said they were sick and nt coming. but diana and olivia ended up coming afterall (:
drills was quite funny. me, diana and qixuan stood together and everything we did reminds me of the past the sect greens had together during drills. the time when our lines were so crooked after hanta-ing that qixuan had to hanta sideways. the way i was prone to moving forward that i started hanta-ing backwards. the way we marched was hilarious. the times with simin and ulyssa. that day's drills was good although i sweated like mad cos i was one of the few wearing blouse. haha. cos i hate my pe shirt ): tell me if i should wear size 40 or 38! i seriously need to get rid of my 44 asap. haha.
then we practiced. hmm....
i got a little pissed then. cos st nicks is seriously killing me. everything has to be paid paid and paid. now i have 4 more big things to worry about. squad tee, band uni, band camp and ____ funds. the prob is, i have to pay everything myself. why? if i told mum, 1. she'll suspect me of trying to cheat money out of her and question me like mad and i'll die of exasperation of trying to explain 2. she'll nag me like shit 3. she won't understand anything 4. i still won't get any money. so forget it. try explaining to mum the need of a class tee, squad tee, band camp. even worse, the need to pay money for ___ funds. i'll have to start saving up like mad. many people think that i get alot of allowance but seriously, it isn't enough. try paying for all your expenses ranging from breakfast to dinner to class funds, squad funds and all other funds, your squad tee, family tee and whatever, your stationery, your books and practically everything blah blah blah and you'll know what i mean. i even pay for my own clothes sometimes. bah.
greatest worry is ____. but i'm nt supposed to disclose.
i am very very upset over a matter.
band camp falls on the days of 6A gathering.
i am very very sad. why must it be such a coincidence? spot on. why must God make fun of me time and time again?
i've been looking forward to the 6A gathering/chalet party for such a long long time. for a whole year i've been anticipating it. at the same time, i'm also excited for swearing in and band camp. now i can only attend 1. i won't even enjoy the 1 i attend cos i'll be missing the other.
apparently, band camp is a must. i will miss the 6A-rians so so much. even more, the stayover clique. claudia, michelle, karen, elton, felix, jia han, alicia. I'LL MISS YOU LOADS. until next year in nov will i get to see you all again. our gathering is really really special and precious to me. i remember last year when we planned the whole thing together. the times we spent at the beach. the fun we had during the barbeque. the midnight feast, the time when we stayed up really really late to talk. the tears we had while we missed the teachers and cried over the fact we would never have a chance to make up to them for being so horrible sometimes during lessons. crying over our sad memories together. then laughing ourselves at being stupid cos a chalet gathering was supposed to be happy. I'LL MISS YOU PEOPLE LOADS )':
and this part is specially delicated to claudia. I'LL MISS YOU LOADS TOO ): although we see each other almost everyday at school, times will never be the same. i remember the turtles that we had together and played with in class. i remember the way we played and eat and chat during recess. our suicidal memories were unforgettable. the way we stressed over all our practice papers. the time when we watched rob-b-hood together with the others and cried like shit. the times spent together at beading class, or in 苏老师学堂. still remember the peach tea addiction :D when we went to out together, when we played maple together. i remember the chalet where we raided cheers for snacks and had a midnight feast. i remember your enormous watermelon lollipop (: and sleeping together on the same single bed during chalet. i remember the time we were so absorbed in playing monkey bars at e field until we both got serious blisters. nothing can replace the little time we had together ):
oh no i'm starting to tear
this is for elton. despite the fact that many people think that guys can never be good friends with girls, we are. you are also part of my peach tea addiction :D i remember how we used to wait for each other at the lrt station to walk to sch together. how i used to bug you to go to church. the time we had during odyssey, building the structure together. how you saw me cry when things didn't work out fine. how rumours spreaded about us ): ok we are still good friends, and wuld forever be. stop imaginating things all 6A-rians.
alicia. i remember you and i started off in P3 during the exam period cos i kept having to walk past your desk to get to mine. the times we had after school playing at the playground opposite the school. how we used to go about together in P3. quarrels over claudia and shiting and everything, but all of us still ended up as good friends (:
michelle and karen. i will never forget how we used to be so happy going home together, raiding cheers after school and snacking. another 2 ppl part of my peach tea addiction :D the jokes, the fun, the laughter. i'll miss all of that, esp now when i have to go home alone ):
felix and jiahan. haha i was never too close to both of you but i'll miss you all the same.
oh gosh. i'll miss all of you so so much i think i will really cry like shit remembering all this on band camp night ... )': was seriously considering escaping after swearing in but them i got remided that the gate will be locked and anyway there is no means of me getting to pasir ris in the middle of the night. i could call a cab and risk getting raped and murdered. even if i didn't mum would probably freak out if she knew.
i promise i'll save all my outgoing calls for nov so that i can phone you all at night. and i hope you'll all do the same
until nov 2008.... ):
life seems bleak suddenly ):
i must remain happy at band camp (:
i must not cry
well you'll never understand cos you're not me
well i think i've blogged to much. far to much. and sis is still not awake ):
i shall go out for dinner now.
random note: this post hit 2247 words! :D
God, spare me the misery
