.Monday, September 24, 2007 ' 8:00 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
shit myself. today was horrible
started off the day feeling depressed and homesick. well, don't ask me why cos i don't understand me myself >:(
went through recess trying to mug and mug last min geog like shit
geog test sucked. everything i studied more for didn't come out, and everything i studied less or didn't study came out. well, its always like that for almost all my tests. what lousy luck i have
and there was this stupid black black picture. and they asked us to identify the thingy. then the nxt part asked what are the advantages and disadvantages. well i first thought of a delta cos thats the only thing e black pic reminded me off. but looking at e part abt advantages and disadvantages, i cleverly wrote
floodplain6 marks gone. down into the drain where it belongs
well, changes occurs everyday in my life
sadly, i am a person who cannot adapt to changes
its back to the square one. i was rather skeptical about it and to me, it seemed that she still hated me. i can forgive, but i don't think i am ever able to forget. esp through such deep and hurting incidents. the pain kept shooting through me. i'm trying, really hard. but it really seems to be that she still detest me. well i can't do anything about it, just to be more open minded and less petty. Joan, forgive and forget. hate brings about more unhappiness
i was pretty confused. and still am. but i decided to drop it. afterall, i should respect her own privacy over her personal matters. i'll just take it that all of us are tired of all this hate and decided to open up and start all over again. its not a bad thing either. hate and unhappiness is bad for the heart, mind and soul. i guess me and that person would prob never be as happy together as we were, or the three of us will never be like the same before. i'll just hope that person reads this, and i want to tell her, i've stopped hating. please stop hating me too. and lets all just try to be like before. i really miss those times.
i didn't regret my decision nt to pon jap today
it was our last lesson with poon
this part is delicated to poon
thanks poon for teaching us over the past 9 months. all that you know, helping us in every way you could. you were not smiley, neither were you friendly. yet i knew deep down you actually care for us and want the best for us. you taught us well although you were strict and boring. although your words are fierce, sarcastic and sharp, i know that you only meant to teach us. thank you poon. or maybe for once, i shall show some due respect and say, arigato sensei
right. i must mug for hist and work on jap oral now
