.Saturday, September 01, 2007 ' 11:25 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
is blogging good or bad?
as i enjoy reading, but have long ran out of materials to read, i have lately taken to reading blogs
i realised that it isn't such a good thing anymore
what i just read made my heart drop all the way down... down...
and it made me tear
are we that irksome?
when we found out abt the first incident, it was enough
i comforted myself thinking that there are others out there for me
but i turned out to be all wrong
i found out how many ppl actually hate us, and find us irritating and sickening
perhaps i have always known, only at the surface of things. but nt in depth
what i read made me realise, actually we all know the truth at its surface, except we've never bothered to find out more, or perhaps we aren't prepared to accept it as a fact
now i know everything
the things i've always wanted to know
i suddenly wish that i hadn't probbed so far into these stuff
and could just pretend that no problems existed and live happily ever after
normally if i come across smth like this, the 1st thing is to share it with this certain grp of ppl who i'm quite, in fact, very close too
we've always shared these kind of problems together
but this time, i'm reluctant to tell them
cos i know that they'll take it even harder than me
but afterall, the have the rights, and need to know
i'm really confused
i'm just too tired to go on trying to solve dumb problems like this
i don't really care if all of you hate us anymore
my emotions and feeling's all numb, the senses are gone
i've given up
