.Monday, September 03, 2007 ' 10:30 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
i realised perhaps i have insomnia
or maybe nt. i don't know. its kinda weird
during sch days where i so often longed to slp and the moment i hit my bed i wuld drift off unconsiously into lalaland. now i actually dread going to sleep. my stomach thingy likes to bug me in e middle of e night. throughout e night i can slp properly cos of my stomach pains. and in e morn headaches start attacking me like crazy. and sleeping and waking up signifies a new day, reminding me of e stuff i haven't done and e little time i have left. and i think i have some kind of sleeping problems. i used to not hear my alarm clock ring and off it unconciously. but now i can just suddenly jump out of my bed panicking at 3am or so and grab my alarm clock, imaginating that i heard my alarm ring and am going to be late for whatever i am supposed to wake up for. and i think i sleepwalk and sleeptalk, and can vaguely rmb it when i wake up, but have no control over it while i'm sleepwalking/talking. i rmb myself going to the toliet in e middle of e night, sit down at the bathtub, wash my hands and go back to sleep. i rmb myself talking gibberish to my stuffed animals in e middle of e night.
i'm convinced that i'm going crazy.
mainly becos of stress
and i don't know why the same kind of nightmares have been drifting in and out lately
the one with kmy, That Person and others involved
i wake up suddenly with fear and confusion
i think i really am stressed
i have finally gotten my hands on the book, a series of unfortunate events book 13, "THE END" (:
i shall stay up reading it tonight (:
i hope i'll survive band tmr
