.Tuesday, August 14, 2007 ' 8:00 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
today was horribly sucky
i hate my life. i hate myself
today was absolutely foul
in the morning i already had a feeling today was going to be horrible
1st period - english
was rushing to colour math scenerio drawings. kana scolded by mrs kwan. endured lots of sarcasm. somemore i'm e english rep
2nd period - chinese
had to talk about e "父亲的野孩子" thingy in front of e class. i talked complete crap. was trying hard not to add english words but was unsuccessful. kept doing dumb action of wringing my arms when i didn't know how to express what i wanted to say in chinese. my chinese absolutely sucks
3rd period - c.lit
was sleeping through e movie. had horrible neck ache.
4th period -D&T
e strip heater i was using caught fire. mr tay blamed me when it wasn't even my fault. i hate him. i hate him so much.
everything went like this:
i was using the strip heater to make my butterfly feelers
i took e strip i was heating away and bent it
suddenly flames burst out from the middle of the strip heater
we started yelling and mr tay came over and i was standing there looking gormless and shocked
everyone was staring at me and mr tay and mr ng and e strip heater
mr tay and mr ng got very agitated
they kept shouting and shouting. and scolded me for just standing there doing nothing. like what was i supposed to do?
mr tay shouted for me to get water. mr ng shouted not to. thank goodness or the heater would explode and i would be dead
mr tay tried to use wood to beat the flames. mr ng blew out e fire.
mr tay scolded and scolded me
"i trusted you! what happened! what did you do?! how come like that?! did you drop acrylic into the heater?! must have!!! do you know you could have set the whole workshop on fire!?!?! what happened?!?!"
i kept saying, "i didn't. i seriously don't know. how would i know? i didn't. i didn't"
he didn't believe me
i really hate it when ppl false accuse me
later mr ng investigated and found a long acrylic tube inside e heater, which meant it couldn't be me cos i was heating a very thin and short strip.
he couldn't even be bothered to apologize
now the whole world thinks that this joan chan from 1 justice almost set fire to the entire dnt workshop
IT WASN'T MY FAULT
HOW MANY TIMES MUST I TELL HIM
i was so angry and upset with him
my whole table lamp was ruined
it looks horrible, and the workmanship is even more horrible
i didn't have time to do everything properly
band - scolded, scolded and scolded
and ms sia forgot to bring my bell, so i used diana's old trombone which didn't have a trigger which make me position wrongly alot of times, and nt to mention it kept leaking saliva
ms sia insulted and scolded us trombone Sec 1s today. alot
she kept saying we were horrible, the worst section, absolutely terrible people
she kept us back after Sec 1 combine ended
all the seniors were coming in and she was insulting us like nobody's business
she kept on scolding and scolding and scolding
esp to diana. poor her
she kept saying i sounded horrible
and said qixuan was the worst. poor her too. its nt fair to her cos she was transfered over. and she kept saying she nv practice which is even more unfair cos qixuan is like so hardworking unlike me who always slacks during band pracs
and she kept bullying diana alot alot alot
she even scolded our seniors
when it wasn't even their fault
she's so unreasonable.
scold us if she wants to. why scold the seniors as well. and she scold is nt normal scoldings she insults you like what and say horrible things about you that really make you want to cry
we left the music room gloomily and unhappily.
her scoldings does no effect except made us unhappy and gloomy and in fact, in her presence, we play even worse than we usually do
everything sounds perfectly fine when i'm typing it out here
but its not
today was really horrible
only that i can't find the words to phrase how horrible it was and how foul and unhappy i feel
i'm really bursting to talk
i really can't stand it anymore
i really am tired of trying not to give up
