.Thursday, August 02, 2007 ' 5:47 AM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
today was an EXHAUSTING and PISSING and EVENTFUL and EMOTIONAL day
why must ppl yearn to be popular so much?
why are ppl just so fake and hypocrital?
its scary
when will there ever be peace within the three of us?
i will never know, even with years of experience, i still will never understand
horrible me
borrowed qixuan's trombone for band after cip
cos mine was sent for repair
and i DROPPED HER SLIDE DOWN E FORUM STAIRS
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I FEEL SO SO SO SO SO 对不起 HER EUU KNOW
JUST AFTER IT WAS SENT FOR REPAIR SOMEMORE
I AM SOOO SOOOOO SOOO SOOO SORRY QIXUAN
and nt only do i have to pump, the guilt will never go away
and the worse thing is, it isn't my trombone
i feel horrible
cip was quite okay
we came back super early like at 5pm
when it was supposed to be 6pm
band was nt excatly good
but anw it never been
so whatever
i am horribly sleepy and tired
try sleeping only like, 4-6 hrs everyday
and see how euu feel after 5 days
esp with life + sch's horrible chores
things are really bothering me alot
but i don't know how to express them properly
i shall go straight to bed and tackle those dumb work tmr morn
perhaps thats e only good thing abt e sis nt being around
