.Wednesday, August 22, 2007 ' 8:10 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
st. nicks has changed me
alot
for the worse
i'm different
i will never be the me i used to be ever again
i saw another
someone at the bus stop coming home frm 3rd lang
which made my stomach clench, missing my pri sch friends and my old pri sch life
i've changed
grp pws are killing me
i'm so sick of them
but i'm so sick of arguing and trying to put my point across and just do nothing but offend ppl all round
for once, i shall just shut up and go along with the ideas i'm nt even happy with
i should learn to control my emotions and words
and my horrible temper
i got 96 for history ppr. highest in class
you think i'm happy? no.
cos i know i cheated. well, nt technically. but i still feel bad abt it
i missed e 1st test, the one which slaughtered everyone. cos of my grandfather's funeral
i know i would have scored horribly if i took e test
now half the class hates me like shit
i don't blame them. although i do think its a little saddening
but will you people be a little more tactful with your words?
"joan! you're so lucky! joan! so good!"
i'm lucky that my grandfather died to that i can skip a history test? do you think that i thought it was good that i had to attend my grandfather's funeral just for the sake of skipping history test?
i feel horrible today
i'm sorry for my sucky attitude
i'm really sorry
perhaps someone should just point out to me in detail how horrible my attitude is so that i'll have a clearer idea
i need to change. for the better
