.Sunday, August 19, 2007 ' 10:40 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
now i know what it feels like not to give a damm about anything anymore
part of me feels sucky
part of me feels defiant
part of me feels scared what tmr might be like
but a very teeny part of me is feeling calm and relaxed
today was a rather relaxing day
i didn't want to think about anything that bothered me
but a teeny part of me kept nudging me to get on with my life, to continue mugging for CA5, to get on with my cme project, to finish all my undone jap hw
i did try to get on with life
i chionged my theory work before piano
after piano i slacked like...
i went shopping with mum. didn't buy anything though. i'm getting broke
i've fallen in love with goldheart's and lee hwa's purple gold
ITS SO BEAUTIFUL
then mum, sis and i went to yakun to drink coffee
and then we went home and i slacked somemore
and then e whole family went to sakae for dinner
they should just smash down those idiotic round tables and seats lah
i was squashed like some shrimp between sis and dad
thanks to those idiot round benches
we sat there chit chatting for a long long time
talking abt all kinds of crap
and when my dad could actually retire
and my family reminding me of how i said i wanted to have 10 kids when i was much younger
HAHA
we all had a good laugh
actually i felt quite out cos as usual, i am the most out-of-the-world person in the family. both my sisters are in uni while i'm still in secondary. and i guess i have a totally different life from them. we grew up differently i guess.
then we walked round and round compass point looking at clothes and stuff
finally reached home at 10
ah wells...
your sms really made my day
i know what i msged euu was really quite ehhhh.... *flushes embarrassedly*
but i wasn't think properly at that time. i mean, i was so emo and all
i am just so, so happy
i started bouncing around and grinning like some retard cheshire cat at church
HAHA
it was a hard and painful 12 days
i'll cherish this properly. i will *prays hard*
cos i've never known its proper significance until i've actually lost it.
i finally found my WATER BABIES!!!!
they're so cute (:
i got purple, yellow, red and transparent
i really wanted blue and pink too
i'll get another pack when i have the money (:
i've done my jap essay corrections
I'M DAMM PISSED
just becos i forgot to staple the 2nd pg when i handed in
POON COUNTED IT AS LATE SUBMISSION AND IS GIVING ME 0 MARKS
WHEN I TOOK GREAT PAINS TO WRITE THE DUMB ESSAY
ooooohhhh... how pissing....
i've just realised many many ppl says cme project is nt due tmr (:
i dun really care abt jap filing anymore... although its graded
i'm just going to flunk jap this yr
this feeling is quite good, actually
having many things to do, yet giving yourself a break and slacking
i feel relaxed
but i guess its back to STRESS STRESS STRESS tmr
schedue: do essay corrections and kanji worksheets in e morn
copy undone jap worksheets off someone in between lessons (bad me)
recess -- study jap. eat
copy undone jap worksheets off someone in between lessons again
lunch -- study jap until 2.30pm. buy bread
2.30 - 3.30pm -- self prac at band rm. (SHIT SHIT I HAVE TO LEARN
CHROMATICS AND INTERVALS AND TRIPLETS THINGY AND SOUSA I STILL
BLOW LIKE SHIT AND SIA IS TESTING ONE BY ONE ON TUES!!!!)
3.30 - 4.30pm -- chiong to 3rd lang like some madwoman (can't afford to be late...)
JAP CA5 !!!!!! (ohmygosh i suddenly feel so nervous)
i'm glad cme is nt due tmr
i shall go to sleep
