.Thursday, August 23, 2007 ' 8:10 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
my lips hurt like bloody hell now
the moment i was out from that horrible combined, i felt like screaming like nobody's business
thankfully, i did not
i think i have some mental problem
i am unaware of what i'm doing sometimes
esp to off my alarm clock without knowing i even did
i felt very braindead today
and my lips hurt like it was on fire
we kept playing intervals and arpeggios over and over
and played long 16 count notes
i couldn't hit the high notes and was pressing like my life depended on it
ms sia kept threatening to kick me out cos i didn't look at her and kept slouching and looking down
its bad. after using diana's old trombone for so long, mine suddenly feels so heavy and i keep forgetting to use the trigger
and i kept slouching to look at e scores
i totally gave up during singapore rhapsody
it was totally new to us
and ms sia wanted us to play
i took 1 look at e score and knew i wuldn't be able to play it
i couldn't even be bothered to try
and i was right in the center. right in front of ms sia if euu didn't count the ppl between us.
i felt so defiant and rebellious
she was giving me this 'do you want to die' look and i was staring indifferently at her like nobody's business
thankfully i got out of this alive
i feel really dead and not myself today
i really don't know what is wrong with me
my lips feel as if its gonna drop off any moment
i just can't help pressing
science centre tmr
i hope it'll be good
