.Friday, August 31, 2007 ' 12:30 AM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
major power failure? no school?
how abrupt.
just when i rushed to buy and wrap all my 7 teacher's day present
now i can go back to rvps earlier (:
but i left my chinese newspapers in sch and i need it for the stupid project ):
i shall rmb to bring it back on tues
band frm 9-12 on tues and thurs (:
i must practice hard!
i still can't sight read well ):
wanted to have an early night but ended up chatting with kmy for over 50 mins
but anw we can wake up late tmr (((:
i am currently on msn with some ppl
finding out things which i shouldn't, knowing things which i've always wanted to know
but suddenly it feels like i don't want to know and find out anything anymore and just pretend everything is fine and happy ever after
we know the truth, but had never faced it
perhaps, although its difficult, its time to face up to reality
i know its hard
but i know we'll always be there for each other (:
lets just stop being so pessimistic ):
its really starting to get serious between me, kmy and That Person
we should all just chill for awhile in the meantime, while we all try to settle this prob
but perhaps there's nth much we can do ... i really don't know. its all confusing and problematic. i've tried to stop hating, to make things seem better. but its just my own thinking. it takes two hands to clap, i mean, if That Person doesn't want to do anything abt this no matter how much effort i put in to try stop this whole problem, it won't make much difference.
but we ought to try nt to feel so unhappy and chill -looks at kmy and myself
and try to stop all this nonsense -looks at That Person
i just don't want to leave this hanging there
all this stuff abt trying and putting in effort
does it make much difference to the result if the problem, in the 1st place, doesn't lie solely with you?
i've tried. and its difficult. i'm really tired of all this nonsense happening and no one doing anything abt it. well, maybe they are. but it doesn't cause much effect. i mean... ok i don't really know what i mean... i just hope that all these things and problems abt personal relations would just end soon and everyone would just live happily ever after
if only it was that simple
thanks tessa... for everything you've done for us (:
