it went on for a long long time
i couldn't stop it
i'm such a sucker

i haven't been studying much today
i haven't done my cme project, or all my many many many pages of jap hw and theory work
my brain feels totally like cotton now
i've forgotten everything i've studied
i think on mon i wuld just break down and start crying during CA5
i suddenly feel that i can't do this
i give up trying to study
i'm totally sick of all those CAs
i give up trying to meet deadlines and fufil my responsibility as a good and hardworking student which i was not, and will never be.
i give up trying futilely to pass my many tests
i give up trying not to drop onto the bed and start sleeping sleeping like some pig everytime i get home

i give up trying to hide my feelings and stop myself from crying

i'm sorry joanne, weng chen, kai sing and all you wonderful jap ppl who have been supporting me so ever much thru all those many CAs and tedious lessons, encouraging me all the way
i'm sorry if i let all of you down by failing another of my CAs again
or worst, just drop it
don't hold it against me
i'm sorry

i'm sorry to all my section greens for being so slacky and un-motivating all of you during band pracs
i'm sorry for my horrible tone and being out of tune all the time, which gets us into alot of trouble during combined
i'm sorry for hogging the tuner during combined all the time
i'm sorry for nt being able to help you with the notes and positioning and all
and i feel guilty for memorizing chromatics by positions

i feel horrible
i suck at putting my point and feelings across in words and instead of making myself feel better, i feel angry and fustrated with myself

i was in no mood to study any longer and started slacking
i stumbled across some ppl's blog
and started reading them
then i realized everything
all the truths behind everything. all the words unsaid. all the secrets unknown
all the things which i've always wanted the answers to
i now know the truth. the horrible truth
now i wished i had never known

i've developed a splitting headache
i'm in a total daze
i can't go on anymore

i can't stop it

i'm such a sucker

Joan Chan
thirteen'
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