.Tuesday, July 17, 2007 ' 10:50 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
yay! e-learning is done =]
i shall do sci filing at sch tmr, and hist wb tmr morn at 4am.
teehee. the usual routine starts over
you just don't understand.
and i expect you will never
is that how you feel?
why don't you try standing in my point of view
then perhaps you would understand a teeny bit better
i don't understand you either
the way your mind works
if you have the ability to get irritated, why can't i too?
afterall, i suppose i am more sensitive
or to put it in a worse way, petty
perhaps you find it comfortable to trash it out
but my unhappiness has been oppressed for a long time
ok, maybe nt that long
but still, i've never trashed out whatever i wanted to say before. becos after living for 13 yrs as a big mouth, i haf realised that there may be dire consequences to our words.
it isn't as simple as we think it will be
there are always after effects
i stare into the ceiling, stare through the bus window, look into space, that is when i do have the leisure time to do so, and wonder, why am i such a failure in this aspect of my life?
yes, perhaps i know what many ppl think of me
i'm a big mouth who talks extremely much, the person who screams and yells like a mad idiot, who gets depressed over the stupidest things, who is extremely tempremental with weird mood swings, who looks sad all the time.
perhaps i might just make an amendment. stop thinking i look depressed all the time. even when i am feeling perfectly normal, you say i'm depressed. what is wrong with you people?
anyway, yes i suppose i am such a person.
but perhaps if you probe a little further, and exercise a little thinking skills, you might find the reasons and causes behind all this.
i am so tired that i shall plop straight to bed
i miss you... but do you realise it?
