.Sunday, July 08, 2007 ' 9:20 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
was that post targeting me?
i know how you feel
cos i've been thru, and still going thru it
and understand the efforts you put in
but sometimes, injustice is just part of our lives
admit it, everyone's faced it before. i mean, who hasn't?
and sometimes thinking of injustice, i just can't hold back the tears too.
for my past e CAs, i've stayed up all night, wrong, i didn't sleep all night trying to study all the vocab and adjectives and rubbish. and i ended up failing.
i really can't face the failure anymore. ,
knowing that i
am going to fail, i really can't be bothered to study for my CA4
i can't bear going tediously thru my books throughout the night, and end up failing still
also, would you like it better if we were redundant, and act sorry and apologetic like her?
sometimes i really think i should just keep my mouth shut
you're angry with me if i'm redundant
but when i try to help, i do try my best, you still end up blaming me.
does that even make sense?
and you say i don't consider your feelings
have you ever considered mine?
i'm sick of the negative remarks. of the self-proclaims.
i really am.
nothing is fair in this world.
i've learnt that a long time ago.
there's no use grieving about it becos there's nth you can do about it
if there was, i won't be so unhappy now
we've all had our fair of injustice.
its just a matter of forgive and forget
and i do understand that that is impt to you
such as english is impt to me
we've all got things that are impt to us
but perhaps, you should also try to understand we can't always expect ppl to think alike as us
after all, we've got different perpectives and views
i feel like deleting this blog for good.
i'm spending so much time blogging
and i've said so many things i shouldn't be saying
and offending people everywhere
and i guess this blog is more like for me to read myself
but i enjoy it. both posting and reading.
i really don't know
there are so many decisions we have to make in life
and i do pray to ask for help. but i never do seem to get obvious answers
all this stuff about squad bonding, section bonding... band concerts all over... and now band is like, a really big dedication and even qixuan thinks its stressed there.
what about me?
do i even have the time?
i'm missing out everything.
i am so tired
but i can't bear to just fill up that stupid form and say byebye to moelc forever
and all the people there
i really don't know
its been nagging me for a long time.
its just 1 sub, but a big dedication.
should i?
i give up. nearly.
i give up trying to make things right, make things better.
they just end up worse. i can't face the failure.
i really can't.
God, help me...
