.Thursday, July 19, 2007 ' 9:20 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
ok, perhaps the previous post was kinda shallow cos i was far too tired
but i feel a teeny bit more energised after having dinner and checking my diary and seeing that there is very little hw we have to do, which i can finish tmr morn
yes, i can tell very very clearly, we're drifting apart
and its nt only me, others can too
do you know how depressing it is for countless ppl to ask me all the time, what is going on between me, you and lydia?
and perhaps becos of e fact that you've been popular all your life, you won't really understand
but lydia, i know that you know how it feels
can you ppl pls try to spare a thought for me?
nth will come out of it... isn't everything's starting to take shape now?
i feel like some kinda standby, a reserve. where i'm only taken in when no one else wants to.
am i destinied to be this kind of person for all my life?
and perhaps you think i don't know what you're saying, but i do have a rough idea
and yes, maybe i have to agree with you, all this things abt me hating hyprocrites, maybe i'm the biggest one myself
but perhaps if you ppl would take one step further to try to understand me, you'll be able to see things better
and why am i always nt allowed to be angry when you people can get angry with me over stupid things
when i'm angry with you ppl, you ppl turn the tables and get angry with me instead
does that make sense?
i am really tired
i don't think i can ever survive tmr
perhaps i really wish i'll get dengue, maybe i'm even fanticising abt it and thats why i keep thinking i'm going to gat dengue. then for once, i lie in bed staring at the ceiling week after week and enjoying the passing moments of peace.
