.Tuesday, July 24, 2007 ' 9:20 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
i am feeling weird today
like a whirl of mixed feelings
today started off fine with boring english and then sci
we went to e lab to see cells again
onion and leaf
i wanted to puke at e smell of e onion
and developed a terrible headache later
i decided that bio has worsen my fear of worms
i dun like bio
i am never ever going to take bio
i hope we do nt haf to deal with worms anytime in sec 1 or 2 where its necessary to do bio
so then recess was fried food day
i hate fried food day
cos i get so tempted to buy food back to class to eat
and then i feel like puking cos of e oil and all
and end up throwing all e food away and wasting money
sighs
we watched e musical during music !!
i think it was 'notte dame' or whatever. just some french musical
it was damm wonderful
it was abt this gypsy called esmeranda who was in paris and 3 men loved her
1 is a security guy who is supposed to chase all gypsies out of paris
1 is this strict strict guy who i duno is who
1 is this retarded-crippled monster/guy
and in e end esmeranda died
i'm nt sure of e whole story cos we skipped alot of parts due to time constrain
it was so touching and melodic and all
i cried alot at all e parts e monster/guy sang, esp e part where e monster sang of his love to esmeranda and when he sang this part abt his crippled, pathetic state and how he hated his parents who abandoned him. cos his voice was like, so emotional and filled with sorrow and whatever. and also at e part where all the 3 guys sang their love to esmeranda. it was really touching and romantic and all. *sniffs*
i can't wait for music nxt wk where we will continue to watch it
ok, australian math competition was a suicide
i was so slpy and tired i gave up doing halfway and filled my oas with rubbish
and went to slp
cos anw, i was nodding off every 3 words i read. dun even talk abt doing e questions. they're horrible
and even if i was perfectly awake i wun be able to do them
me and qixuan ended up going to pizza hut :)
we talked abt alot of things and my problems which i've never told anyone before cos i was always scared they'll find it stupid. abt how i feel all e time abt ppl misunderstanding me and how much i think i've changed. and how upset i feel abt some stuff, how stressed i get sometimes and how i feel abt some ppl. and we talked abt our seniors and band stuff and wondered how wuld it be like in sec 2, 3, 4. haha. and and i think qixuan's positive attitude does rub of me alot cos by e time i left for 3rd lang, i felt more cheerful :)
and she said smth which touched me alot
"dun worry lah i wun quit band. i wun leave euu alone de"
that was sweet
it means alot to me, dearie :)
3rd lang was okay. i think i'm getting a little better now :)
except i have to work harder on vocab
as qixuan motivated me, either i quit and stop wasting my time, or i work harder.
she asked me if i liked jap.
i love jap. seriously i do. i feel the pride of being able to speak it and understand it and everything. i've wanted to learn jap since 5. i've always fantasize abt being able to speak and write it when i was young. and now i have the chance, i must make good use of it.
i shall start studying jap every saturday frm now. :)
thx qixuan for motivating me. the little that you do always means alot to me :)
i have a pile up of weekend homework
-sighs and shakes head-
but my HIBERNATION TIME frm fri night to sat late morn cannot be changed !!!!
i keep myself alive everyday by looking forward to it :)
