.Wednesday, May 23, 2007 ' 10:10 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
there are ALOT ALOT ALOT of things i want to post but i only haf A LITTLE A LITTLE A LITTLE time cos i haf to chiong dnt pw and then memorise ting xie idiom sentences.
so i shall post some stuff, and other stuff on sat cos its e HOLIDAYS =]
though this holiday will be very different frm the past ones. it will be a damm busy holiday. e only thing is that i'll be able to get more slp =]
i'm really sick of HER
i do miss her alot
i feel that since sec sch, i've been spending more time with my friends, classmates, band mates, 3rd lang mates, myself and nt with her.
we're drifting apart.
but when i make the effort to put aside time to spend with her, just me and her alone, she always has different plans.
she'll pull in my sisters, my grandmother, her friends. wdv
how many free days do i haf a wk? ppl whu know me well, pls enlighten her.
on friday afternoons when i get to leave sch at 4.30 which is e earliest i can leave sch and i dun nid to study or do hw or wdv cos dere's e weekends to do it and i really look forward to spending some time with her, she always spoils it.
the moment i get home she'll start nagging and nagging and nagging. so much that it spoils my mood to do smth special with her.
sometimes she really spoils it all for me.
i do miss her alot.
but sometimes i do get really pissed with her. and ppl whu know me well wuld know dat when i'm pissed, i'll get super upset too.
the way she's always biased to my sisters. i really dun wish to elaborate.
the way she nags at me sarcastically even when i'm tired and weary after sch and everything.
the way she's always complaining about me behind my back.
the way she's never satisfied with or appreciates what i do.
everything she does, she just can never seem to understand me and take care of my emotional needs and my feelings.
i think my friends and classmates can do much better than her.
afterall, they seem to spend more time with me than i do with her.
but still, i do miss her.
i do miss my second sis lots too. the silly we had pretending to make our stuff animals talk, and we're still doing now. its hard to believe that we're 13 and 19.
when we stayed up super late during de hols to play tai tee (sry abt spelling) and stress, and watching hk dramas.
when we went down to suntec city and walked round the wishing fountain thing. i wished that we could do this more often.
when we went out to the movies together, or went shopping for my birthday presents =]
when we went down to takashimaya and orchard road together and shared coffee bean's ice blended coffee thingy.
when we went sailing together, sometimes with my father too.
i hardly ever see euu now. sometimes i slp early and wake up at like, 2am to do my work, i dun see euu at all.
and even if i don't slp early, we hardly haf 2 hrs together except when your off days and my free days happen to be on e same day.
i will miss euu even more when euu go to university and stay there.
its hard to believe that 3 yrs ago i was complaining about having to share a rm wif euu.
now i wish dat euu'll stay.
e hse will never be the same without euu.
ahems. i think i'm posting a little too much
better get started on dnt and ting xie now if i wan get sum decent slp.
but its kinda unlikely
nvms, seeing that its e last day of sch tmr.
there'll be POP (passing out parade) tmr, where e sec 4s wuld leave band, and den we'll go for sectional dinner.
i'm half looking forward and half nt looking forward to it for personal reasons that are nt convenient to disclose here.
i'm feeling a little scared abt whu's reading my blog cos it seems like ppl whu i nv expected to read my blog actually visited it.
haha
ok, DNT TIME LARH. WHY AM I SUCH A CHATTERBOX?
haii. i think i seriously talk too much
byebye =X
