.Monday, April 30, 2007 ' 9:45 PM Y
you used to be the reason, for my smile.
damm the roaches.
can't even bathe in peace.
so kan chiong, scuttling all over de floor and overturned.
mum went, "HIYA... KAPOW.... WHAM" with the magic clean mop.
whooshit. God said, "thou shall not kill"...
does that count? i duno....
i feel so random today...
i suddenly feel so inferior... i mean, i'm not chio (pretty), i'm fat, i've got buckteeth and stuff.. and i'm so not photogenic...
especially when i hang around wif chio and 'sexy' ppl...
i think my physical appearence is horrible...
i'm nt sure abt de inside though... its hard to evaluate...
i suddenly feel that i'll miss my sec 4 trombone seniors when they leave... and 1 of the the sec 3s take over as the sectional leader.
honestly, i dun realli like both of de sec 3s...
the sec 2s are quite friendly though...
the sec 4s are okay... better than 3s larhhs....
i'm gonna miss the sec 4s .... especially my sectional leader...
she's kinda nice...
yepps... she is...
i gotta feeling the whole trombone section thinks i'm very unfriendly
cos i dun realli wave to them or what when i see dem... i just pretend i didn't see anything
cos i'm scared dat they think i'm so lame or childish or whatever when i wave tuu dem...
and i didn't go for sectional lunch or whatever cos 1st, i didn't even know abt it and 2nd, i'll feel damm awkward dere.
i suddenly feel quite excited abt band camp...
there's like, going to be 5 sec1 trombone ppl soon... i think...
if ms sia's serious abt transfering qi xuan over...
its like, so damm many... norm there's ony 2-3 ppl in trombone...
though i rather there was no band camp...
i mean, its on friday to sat. so i gotta rush hme after sch and i live in sengkang.... and then go back tuu sch and cum back on saturday...
luckily there's no foc on that saturday...
and i'm kinda scared abt it... with all de seniors and everything... i'll feel so stupid and awkward
i've got a senior phobia... i think ....
i think i'll go to the jubilate after all...
just hope i wun be sitting beside anyone i dun want to sit with
at least i can meet xin yun, sarah, vanessa, may shuen, denise .... after the concert.
hope i can hitch a ride home frm xin yun... muahahaha... jkjk....
tmr's labour day... and may shuen, min yu and angelina's coming over to my place for english pw.
yay... finally we're nt meeting at ang mo kio/bishan area...
and angelina didn't complain so much cos she lives near sengkang
i hate hair dryers... so i can't slp yet cos my hair's still wet
and i'm in no mood to do hw...
i'm gonna get slaughtered by ms sia on thurs cos i didn't bring my trombone home to prac
ahhh...
shall nt worry abt that now...
shall worry more abt jap ca3...
diediediediedie
shall start worrying abt hw and pws and tests and whatever crap dat takes up so much space of the limited capacity of my brain tmr.
i haf decided i shall prac piano now, read a storybook or smth den go slp when my hair's dry.
hadn't had time to read for leisure for a long long time...
i'm gonna prac my scales... wanna get done wif my grade 2 asap... den maybe retake grade 3...
i'm gonna start my lessons again in june.
can't wait
whoohoo...
